The calendar pages were turning on the wall. But I was suspended, unable to fall. A static frequency, a flatline in the dark No heat in the ashes, no heat in the spark I wasn’t a man, I was just a delay While my body and my future were drifting away. I wasn’t there to see the cracks in the floor I wasn’t there to watch you walk to the door How could I notice the tilt of the frame? When I couldn’t even remember my own middle name? I was in limbo, suspended in space A missing person with a familiar face You were pulling away while I was going into the gray Tucked in a corner of a dark and sacred prison I couldn't see the storm or the warning signs I was just a ghost seeing every other line. They call it a waiting room, but nothing arrives Just a dull intersection of separate lives I was fighting a war on an internal map While you were busy escaping the trap You mistake my absence for a lack of respect But I was just trying to survive the neglect. The monitors clicked and the shadows got long By the time I woke up, the music was gone You blame me for missing the red flags you flew But I was too busy just trying to pull through A stranger to myself, a stranger to the light Lost in the gray of a permanent night. Where was I? Nowhere. Where were you? Gone. I didn't choose the dark. I just couldn't see the dawn I didn't leave you! I was fighting for my breath! I was trading my time at the borders of death! You call it a failure, you call it a blind spot! But I was just giving it everything I got! Just limbo. A gray room. A blank slate. By the time I came back...It was already too late.
