I learned everybody’s names And when I’m supposed to laugh I stand inside the circle Like a shadow someone cast I rehearse a hundred answers But they vanish when I speak So I smile like I’m included While the floor falls under me No one tells me I should go But no one notices I’m gone I’m always at the edge of the picture Half in the light, half erased Trying to belong to the moment While wishing I could leave no trace Maybe I’m the space in the silence The empty chair no one will miss I wanted so badly to fit here But I learned how to disappear Every movement feels unnatural Every word arrives too late I turn kindness into questions And attention into weight They make room for me beside them But I don’t know how to stay I keep waiting to feel wanted Till I want to get away They may never shut me out I just never let them in I’m always at the edge of the picture Half in the light, half erased Trying to belong to the moment While wishing I could leave no trace Maybe I’m the space in the silence The empty chair no one will miss I wanted so badly to fit here But I learned how to disappear So I’ll leave before the leaving Before goodbye becomes a scene Before somebody can remember There was ever space for me And they’ll say I became distant Like I chose another life But I was standing right beside them Trying not to take up mine I’m fading from the edge of the picture Letting the colors close over me They’ll carry on with the moment The way it was supposed to be Maybe I was loved in the silence Maybe I was simply scared I wanted so badly to fit here But I never believed I belonged there No one told me I should go I just couldn’t learn to stay
