Die to feel alive

[Verse 1] I’ve been running circles in my head again, Counting clouds instead of names. Every thought’s a war I can’t defend, And peace just feels pretend. [Pre-Chorus] I laugh too loud so I don’t break, Hide my truth for comfort’s sake. I talk too much so they don’t see, The quiet parts consuming me. [Chorus] I’d kill myself if it means I’ll get a blissful sleep, Without worries and tears and the war in my head. ’Cause I’d die just to feel alive, To feel anything that doesn't hurt me [Verse 2] Tried to drown my thoughts in a flood of tears, Feel the ache when the morning nears. Every night I lose a piece of me, To dreams that never came to me. [Bridge] If peace is real, I’ve long forgot it, I chase its ghost through old pictures on my phone. Maybe someday, when I’m less tired, I’ll wake up and I’ll feel alright. [Final Chorus] I’d kill myself if it means I’ll get a blissful sleep, Without worries and tears and the war in my head. ’Cause I’d die to be happy for one night, Even if it is just for one night.