[Intro] Two lines in a bathroom light, And suddenly I can't breathe right. I've stared down death a thousand times, But nothing scared me like those lines. [Verse 1] Found a little piece of plastic, Buried underneath the lies. Held it up against the mirror, Couldn't look myself in the eyes. Thought I'd laugh and throw it somewhere, Thought I'd leave without a sound. But my feet stayed on that cold floor, Like somebody nailed them down. I've got ashes in my history, Got a name I tried to kill. Never thought about tomorrow, Never thought I ever would. [Pre-Chorus] I know the sound of doors that slam, I know what makes a monster out of man. And if there's life behind those lines, God, what if it inherits mine? [Chorus] I don't know how to be a father, I barely know how to be a man. All I learned was how to burn things, How to break before I bend. But there's something in this silence, Something underneath the fear. For the first time in forever, I don't wanna disappear. I can't promise I'm not broken, Can't pretend I understand. But maybe there's a future I don't have to turn to ash. [Verse 2] I remember every winter, Every cold and empty chair. Every time I screamed for someone, Just to find nobody there. I remember chasing fire, Till it swallowed up my skin. All I wanted was a father Who could love the child within. Now I'm standing in his shadow, With his blood beneath my scars. Wondering if I'll be different, Or just break another heart. [Pre-Chorus] What if I hear his voice in mine? What if I cross the same damn line? What if a little hand reaches for me, And I become what I used to fear? [Chorus] I don't know how to be a father, I barely know how to be a man. All I learned was how to burn things, How to break before I bend. But there's something in this silence, Something underneath the fear. For the first time in forever, I don't wanna disappear. I can't promise I'm not broken, Can't pretend I understand. But maybe there's a future I don't have to turn to ash. [Verse 3] I haven't heard the truth yet, And I know it isn't mine to choose. There's a world outside this moment, And there's more at stake than what I could lose. I won't call this my redemption, Won't pretend a child could save my soul. That's too much to place on shoulders That haven't even seen this world. But if the answer changes everything, If there's a road we choose to try, I wanna learn to hold something Without setting it alight. [Bridge] I won't make you carry my ghosts. I won't make a child earn love. I won't measure little hands By what their fire can become. And if those eyes look back like mine, If they ask me why I'm scarred, I'll tell them pain is not a birthright, And love should never be this hard. I don't know if I can do it. God, I don't know where to start. But I know what it feels like When a father breaks your heart. [Final Chorus] I don't know how to be a father, But I know what I won't be. I won't turn another childhood Into one more tragedy. I won't call my anger justice, Won't make fear a family name. I can't undo the things I've shattered, But I can choose what happens next. There's something in this silence, Something stronger than the fear. For the first time in forever, I don't wanna disappear. I'm still broken, I'm still burning, Still a man with bloodstained hands. But maybe there's a future I don't have to turn to ash. [Outro] Two lines in a bathroom light, A thousand questions in my mind. I never thought I'd want to stay. Never thought I'd be afraid Of losing something I haven't even held. "Just tell me it's real..." "Tell me what's happening." "...I'm still here."
