The War Upstairs

Verse 1 Three in the morning and my brain’s on fire, Thoughts climbing higher and higher and higher. Every damn memory kicks in the door, I swear I’ve lived this night a thousand times before. No sleep. No peace. No fucking break. Every breath feels like another mistake. Close my eyes and the movie rolls, Trauma keeps collecting fucking tolls. Pre-Chorus So I count… One… two… three drinks. Maybe that’ll shut this engine down. One… two… three pills. Maybe I won’t fucking drown. But morning always finds me Right back where I’ve been. Same damn battle, Different skin. Chorus I’m trapped inside a brain that won’t shut up, Running every red light, never giving up. I’m exhausted, pissed off, running on fumes, Making deals with every demon in the room. One, two, three drinks… still awake. One, two, three pills… still fucking shake. How the hell do people close their eyes When my mind starts another goddamn fight? I’m not chasing a high— I’m chasing five damn hours of sleep. Trying to outrun the memories That refuse to fucking leave. Verse 2 Everybody says, “Just get some rest.” Like sleep’s a switch inside my chest. They don’t hear the war upstairs, Or feel the panic filling every prayer. I’m sick of counting cracks in the ceiling. Sick of pretending that I’m fucking healing. Some days I’m winning by an inch at best, Some days survival is the whole damn test. Bridge I’m angry. At what happened. At what it turned me into. At every night my nervous system Forgets the war is over. I don’t want another bottle. I don’t want another pill. I just want one goddamn night Where silence Is actually… Silent. Final Chorus One… two… three drinks. Still chasing sleep that never comes. One… two… three pills. Still hearing every beating drum. I’m clawing toward a morning Where my head quits screaming my name. I’m fighting like hell to stay alive— And that’s a victory No one fucking sees. Outro Maybe tomorrow I’ll finally sleep. Maybe tomorrow my mind lets go. Until then… I’ll keep fighting This bastard inside my own skull.