01/03/25 Dear-diary, me,life enquiry, mental health trying me. Confide in me. (Tell me all your secrets).”dear sir-madam”- fuck it-get-reaching, preaching, -“please sure we just want a meeting” No you don’t….got me feeling…(Guinea pig, skinny kid,skinny legs, you really said that yeah.. yeah I really did, it’s truth, fear within, no sleeping, this seeming, endless… (fuck it, let’s, get, steaming)drownsorrowsinside-screaming,but it’s liquid healing, no dealing, numb feeling, does point to bigger issues, bigger issues Issuers bigger, and bigger and bigger and bigger and bigger, big big big (Bidi-pop-it) Brain broke stop it, “Smoke,smoke, smoke…. it twirls and bends” That’s cute, artistic… like time mends. That’s a lie… inevitably end. Linguistic, statistic, apocalypse….. What wear,slept, missed it. It. It. It…..it…. I… “tea” Was that really me, words escaping me, forsaken me like. Like like like like Oh lord my savior, I shall take a knee, wait hear, taketh-me. Yo, yo yuh,yuh,yuh,yuh,yuh. (Jimmy’s stuttering again) B-b-b-b…. (“This happening?”) Yew-yew-yew B-b-bidi-bop-boo-bipidi-bipod I-no-body-stopping-me. Bastard, Like Anne Frank, Plan sank. Hope shrank. Lights blank. Fear’s prank. Doors clank. Shadows flank. Secrets rank. Ghosts thank. Fuck that Anne, Grab ’em by the neck, Quick shank, Harry Potter, nah, Crook shanks, Blood drips, Heart skips, Dark grips. Mind flips, Time slips, Cold lips. Night’s call, Fear’s thrall, Walls crawl. Silence screams, Shattered dreams, Endless streams. World war 3, who’s hiding this time it seems. Radioactive dreams. “When I was a kid, I said I want to be a murderer” End your life, like half your football team, ain’t heard of you. Absurd, true. Maybe that means, you see, age 3, memory, error, pre-new-century, feeling rather uncomplimentry, (downwards-trajectory), happy care free, secretary of the treasury. Always been short, people measure me. Stop that…. (Treasure me) pedigree, not incest, just prime you see. Anyway jimmy nice vent, that’s the end from me. (Who picks up blind people’s dog poop, shit!) Ooooogedy booogedy Let’s watch a movie, which film, see what the mood is. Netflix, chills and rizz. Is she a quitter, or is it piss. Got me in the eye, like this bitch jizzed. (What if I lose my eye sight) my fight, tonight, my night, medieval knight…. Back to the fight B-b-b-b-Blam Oh man Covered in mud, could be fake tan, real man. Applying conifidence from a tin man, deep down he’s angry like shin Chan….WHO!? You knew, know. Really should go. Don’t leave the house, but my mind still knows. Each day the walls take the anxiety grows, venom, deadly… if the snakes unknown. Now moan, groan, what’s this voice. Change your tone. I’m gunna make like a tree and…. “Piss off!” Shoulda said leave, but I’ve gotta use the word again you see, it’s my song, language free. A-B-C, D….. L-M-N-M-N-M-N-emino….PEE… fuck skip a few. We got to Z. That’s the end of it. Leave
