Meditative music, female vocals. You don't have to try so hard, just be you, juat breath and be the person that you want to be. At the end you will only regreat trying to be someone else for others that you are not. Life is to explore, to find yourself, to make misstakes and learn from them, to make you stronger and wiser. Don't judge nor suppress others for you gain, that will only be another thing to regret.