I said this isn't spiritual so if jesus talk isn't for you whatever but I was taught in AA before I truly understood my understanding of God that you should "be quick to acknowledge where religious people are right" but that's just it…. They were right. Jesus hardly walked amongst or chose to appoint perfect people - they were shaped over series of events that were placed to show them something of use to survive later. It's - how I've learned to let go.. some when it comes to the addicted that walk alive and whom I pray for each night … I hate that it's a world where due to my willing involvement / supposed - alleged - so they said good people , church people , supposed righteous… they didn't show me God / not in their embodiment.. but several very surprising characters in my story.. they embodied Christ. Money is evil. Diligent and aware are the righteous. Compassion - i believe it comes from having been through pain big enough to see it in another person. I may be wrong. But we all have a journey - some shaped differently than others. & i believe i have a concept of how jesus could forgive the unforgivable. 1. It was never ever truly jesus. 2. They did not understand. But maybe.. someday. Could. I bet jesus knew our potential. & in some way I connect that. I had an english teacher for AP English 2 in sophomore year - she had us find parables to literature. If I think of a metaphorical spirit - it wouldn't be in the same place u would think… and i just think its a little sus we dont know much about jesus aside from the little wine drop ins - i smell a hint of a hint…. But we all get to interpret for ourselves I even have a whacko conspiracy that some religions - are evils - forms of demonic behavior or witchcraft… or maybe even equal in definition- money calculate your odds.. know the answer that might just help another I have gone the wrong way and he is frustrated still he keeps me moving even if takes a bang to turn me around. still he keeps me brave keeps me moving towards - something every wrong turn was a mercy in disguise every closed door made room for my life - thank you God for answering all the times i have prayed for my life and promised you things i took back. Thanks for knowing my heart
