[Verse] Defenses peel away, I feel the rage Boom boom, as the heartbeat quakes Boom boom, another stomach ache Boom boom, another shoe on my face Defenses peel away, I feel the rage, Slip away, acetone to adhesive Didn’t fade, but the pain became deepened In a way, I became my own demon. Reduction became a grave, inside a cage, Is a heart that just beats without reason Survival is another form of treason If I live, then the cycle is a season. [build] It repeats, it repeats, it repeats Every second, every week Every day, within my speech Every word on every sheet Every note on every beat Every record on repeat Every bloodstain underneath Every bruise on youthful cheeks [peak] Defenses peel away, I feel the rage Boom boom, as the heartbeat quakes (I made a mistake) Boom boom, another stomach ache (I hate who I am) Boom boom, another shoe on my face (You hate what I am) [Bridge] I thought I told you In the end, this would be the result. You told me I was wrong, You let me believe in hope And maybe, back then you believed it. You really thought we would last And you pretended with all that you have Until the moment was clear I swung with a hammer in a room made of glass. I couldn’t hide anymore But I was still too scared to take off the mask. [Verse 2] So I ran away from our home I remember our pet, and I hear her sometimes. I still look at my older phone Hoping one day you’ll text me, just to see if I’m fine… And I know how selfish that is I should have cherished the connection when it was mine For some reason I’m stupid And tend to romanticize loss if I’m ever left behind. [Cinematic Outro] Defenses peel away, I feel the rage Boom boom, as the heartbeat quakes Boom boom, another stomach ache Boom boom, another shoe on my face I thought I told you In the end, this would be the result. You told me I was wrong, You let me believe in hope.
