Guess I'm jealous(bradmuir)

I've never been an envious person in my life, man Never been jealous of nobody But like, I did have a conversation with Mackenzie the other dare About like sometimes you do slip into those envious moments That people who don't have to deal with The mental health shit you know what 1 mean Like how do you not feel that? Juxtaposition of the weak and the strong In a world full of so many people But seem so alone I fall into comparin' myself to few So elated, I've waited with nothing else to do I sit at bay while the ocean moves Transparent, opaque, but we're both so blue Look to space, lost within it seems, oh, so gloom Both dark for a star, where Igo's no moon And I feel like fightin', betrayed by God And I don't feel right cryin' while everybody's smilin' But I'm real-life dyin' to live a life like you do With mental illness non- existent, pain is well but few too Taking some shots like my pistol out You can just tell the bartender to send more rounds Pop me an Ativan, so 1 can simmer down Someone save me before I fuckin' hit the ground I know what I feel is envy now People don't feel what I feel and that's really wild Invisible while l'm standin' right in the crowd When they said, "Ignorance is bliss, "1 get it now I'm jealous of you I'm so jealous (jealous) Damn, I'm jealous of you So jealous of you Yep, I'm jealous of you I'm so jealous (jealous) Damn, I'm jealous of you So jealous Jealous, yeah Canouy You ain't never dealt with this pain, yeah All sunshine, no rain, yeah Your life's so clean, no stain, yeah Ain't no stress, no strain yeah Never dealt with this pain, yeah Fuckin' up your brain, yeah Life's so clean, no stain, yeah Ain't no stress, no strain, yeah (jealous) Chuggin' this 40 while holdin' his TEC Jellysickle like E-40 and Tech How the fuck he don't feel this? Mean no disrespect I'm as cold as a corpse I'm a ghost in the flesh Society has it at home to be next Preachers outtake me, now bozo's a threat For jelly, you embrue like the homie I guess For sure depressed, that ball went over your head (over your head) Insomnia when you going to bed And searchin' for love, I ain't holdin' my breath I don't wanna answer my Phone or a text. But it's 3 a.m., and I'm scrollin' my thread All of this fame, but still lonely as heck Don't check on me, but 1'I1 still loan you a check One day you'll be woke to this cloak, how l'm dressed By then, at the way, King Iso'll be dead Two baby boys, why I give all my passion And I stay driven, though mentally crashin' Some people just do not get it, I'm askin' Is it wrong to feel this envy I'm having? I'm savin' lives I didn't imagine Got to be strong, my strength isn't lastin' Here is the sad plot twist I've established Iso's a hero that wished it could happen, I'm jealous of you I'm so jealous (jealous) Damn, I'm jealous of you So jealous of you Yep, I'm jealous of you I'm so jealous (jealous) Damn, I'm jealous of you So jealous Jealous, yeah You ain't never dealt with this pain,