I didn’t fall into it I stepped in wide awake Said just this once Said just tonight Said whatever it takes I watched my life get lighter As the nights got heavy Didn’t steal my future I handed it steady I didn’t stop I saw it coming It don’t chase It waits on me It’s in my head It’s in my blood I call it a dream But I know what it was I swore I was done I swore I moved on Still I run toward the thing That I’d already won I got good at looking fine Got good at the lying Got good at saying Yeah I’m straight While it eats me alive Lost time Lost weight Lost faith and sleep Every time I say never It remembers me I don’t scream I don’t shake I just wait Till my patience breaks It’s in my head It’s in my blood I call it a dream But I know what it was I swore I was done I swore I moved on Still I run toward the thing That already won Say I quit Say I changed Say it slow so it numbs the pain I know the truth I know the cost Still chasing something I already lost It’s in my head It’s in my blood I call it a dream But I know what it was I swore I was done I swore I moved on Still I run toward the thing That already won Already won Already won Already won Already won
