like I'm a fucking joke Like i'm a fucking joke These fuckers think that I’m a joke They think my stories are just shit and smoke But all 4 notches on my belt Come from the death that I alone done dealt So keep on thinking that I’m shit Don’t believe the words I spit But just know that I sometimes cry because in the end all of my shits legit Fuck you little honkys Fuck you white trash junkies all of you flunkies that's right, you Piece of shit junkies I been judged worse by far better Never cared about a grade it’s just a letter Got a sweater that could sweat her and you know she’s knowing better I can get her in a letter or a phone call regret her But I let her think she’s got more power by the hour She think she got power but that’s only because I let her Fucking BOOM! Don’t give a fuck about a bitch Cause all of these girls switch Put a cut up in a snitch, I might not know if I am right but I look like I am white so I don’t fucking care which is which Wrong Just cause I’m wrong doesn’t mean you’re right Your rights don’t include Fucking up my life You gave me strife Trifling spite Charge at me and my son with a steak knife What you thought wasn’t real A year of my life I let you steal Love kills Late bills I don’t wanna feel shit so I take more pills Why do I let some people treat me that way Like I think there’s a price that I’m gonna have to pay You played I stayed Betrayed Waited for that feeling that I had to finally fade I’m sweating thinking I’m regretting sinking to your level drinking too much I’m Still missing your touch Shits tough, but I keep going, I’m not dying, I am growing, even if my age is showing, I will reap the seeds I’m sowing All I really want is more Everything I’m fighting for Everything I’m striving for You got it all so fucking pour Don’t ignore Twist the chore Hit the connect and Lock the door Falling out I’m staying in The whore I’m in will wake up sore You like leaving me on read Leave me stuck inside my head So, I sit here on my bed think of nothing but bloodshed Instead of feelin the dread Get out and tune in your head Go out alone and get fed Did you remember your meds I come exactly as advertised Yet everyone seems surprised Like maybe I was just telling lies Or How much their empathy buys I! Wasn’t supposed to still be here And I! Didn’t want to still be here I! Wasn’t meant to survive, dear. But I! Am done with shedding tears!
