wanting to fit in but longing to stand out opt out. Benita the, above the, status quo. happiness in darkness and darkness in the morning for the darkness is always in me. it hovers like a cloud- above my head- steady constant rain inside me like the saddest little marshland inside my brain. I’m sad I’m burning flame. I’m over all these stupid little lifeless life games. who’s to say it’s me it’s not me I’m the freak not free and I’m here unless I go give up I’m free except for these bars and chains containing me I’m I’m breathing out the apathy finding only distruction and greed and I’m green sick fro all the dismay dishonesty if I could burn holes bore holes through you with just my anger and dirty looks I would be a serial killing little dweeb. but operas don’t come like that they leave us to the elements and fretting far past comfort says to stay. I don’t know I know I know I don’t know I’m lost in the anger in the grove of all these hell demon plants blubbering excuses, grant grant me the awareness to be to believe I anything anything even me except me except the free the freaks the treats I’m here but I’m not I’m not here I’m with me lost in the prophecy reading on how I’m complete incomplete I’m completely obsolete just another human ground to meat and look at me these tears breed inept and disagrees just want some plesentness but finding only pain I’ve searched the streets only finding pain and loss is this all awaits me you’ve taken damn near everything and look at us look at we we’ve got to find a way to speak I miss the me I used to be and so alone save for the mean the deranged and torturing burning their hate right into me and not deserved and not unclean it’s a sheer cut of the obsessed obscene I’m wondering is there may more any left for me I’ve got to be and hooked on a role on a stole stolen life at my feet it lay gasping grasping for any worthwhile leak stray thoughts bore horrors into me I miss the free seldom angry but no it all I’ve beeen all I can be it seems to be a lonesome another lonesome night packed filll of apathy I’m furthering my knowledge and getting out nowhere to be laughter ain’t the way but see if I could I would tear it up right on through the harrowing mindless trees I’m lost I see see I see you seeing me hard to miss it’s everywhere and all I don’t want to see have or hear or scream I’d scream I scream internally la da dah la de day finally got real finally got to say I hate this pain dismay this array you aren’t my friends you feed on me I’m not an object or a program I need to breathe let me be be I’m I don’t know I know I know I don’t know I’m lost in the anger stray thoughts bore horrors into me I miss the free seldom angry but no it all I’ve beeen all I can be it seems to be a lonesome another lonesome night packed filll of apathy I’m furthering my knowledge and getting out nowhere to be laughter ain’t the way but see if I could I would tear it up right on through the harrowing mindless trees I’m lost I see see I see you seeing me hard to miss it’s everywhere and all I don’t want to see have or hear or scream I’d scream I scream internally la da dah la de day finally got real finally got to say I hate this pain dismay this array grant me the awareness to be to believe I anything anything even me except me except the free the freaks the treats I’m here but I’m not I’m not here I’m with me lost in the prophecy reading on how I’m complete incomplete I’m completely obsolete just another human ground to meat and look at me these tears breed inept and disagrees just want some plesentness but finding only pain I don’t know I know I know I don’t know I’m lost in the anger I miss the me I used to be We’ve got to find a way We’ve got to speak La de da La de day Internally I scream In disarray I’m a I had all the It’s null intact A loaded creep it seems to be a lonesome another lonesome night packed filll of apathy I’m furthering my knowledge and getting out nowhere to be laughter ain’t the way- but see if I could I would tear it up right on through the harrowing mindless trees I’m lost I see see I see you seeing me hard to miss it’s everywhere and all I don’t want to see have or hear or scream I’d scream I scream internally la da dah la de day finally got real finally got to say I hate this pain dismay this array la da dah la de day I see you Seeing me It’s everywhere And all I don’t want to see Have or hear or Breathe Just let me be I’m not a thing I’m a human being Let me be Live Be I just wanna be
