Don’t keep me around

I said I was fine — I always say that It keeps things quiet, keeps us intact You ask how I’ve been like it’s just a line Like you didn’t teach me how to lie You act like time never took a side Like leaving was clean, like nothing survived You don’t say you’re staying, don’t say you’re gone You leave me standing where I don’t belong I don’t need saving, I need you straight Don’t lower your voice like it softens the weight If silence is mercy, say it’s the end Don’t make me fluent in what you won’t defend If you want me, want me out loud If you don’t, don’t keep me around Don’t say “maybe”, don’t say “someday” Those are just words that delay the pain You touch like a habit you won’t explain Say my name slow, then take it away You hate decisions, you hate the cost But you live just fine with what it does to us And I hate that I see it I hate that I stay I hate that I call this “Love” anyway If you want me, want me out loud If you don’t, don’t keep me around Don’t say “maybe”, don’t say “someday” Those are just words that delay the pain I can live with the ending, the cut, the scar I can’t live being half of what you are You get the comfort, I get the doubt You get to breathe, I get worn out If you want me, want me out loud If you don’t, don’t keep me around Don’t say “maybe”, don’t say “someday” Those are just words that delay the pain So here it is — no drama, no fight I won’t beg you to choose me tonight This isn’t strength, it’s just being done With waiting to be someone’s almost-one I’ve learned the difference Between being wanted And being convenient