[INTRO – distant static, soft room tone, exhausted vocal] I need some time to rest my head Lay my body down inside our bed Old post-it notes still on the wall Feels like somebody else wrote them all [VERSE 1 – intimate, restrained] I need some time to numb my brain Seven years trying to change Still hear the same words leave your mouth Like nothing in me worked out Bathroom light and empty hands Trying hard to understand How love turns into evidence And bitterness just settles in You used to tell me I was strong Thank me for still holding on Now you read those notes confused Like none of that belonged to you [PRE-CHORUS – tension building] And maybe I deserve this hell Maybe broken fits me well Every failure left a mark Still carrying it through the dark [HOOK – emotional, melodic] Don't wanna be the one letting you down Spent years trying to turn myself around I try to scream but I can't make a sound Guess I got too used to drowning out Don't wanna be the reason you hate Every version of me stayed too late I try to leave but you pull me to stay Just to use the same knives every day [POST-HOOK – hazy repetition] Guess I really got nothing to say Guess I really got nothing to save Guess I really got nothing to say Except I'm tired of feeling this way [VERSE 2 – darker, more vulnerable] Learned young how to disappear Dopamine just kills the fear Body wired to self-destruct Mistaking comfort for being touched Late nights just to feel okay Compulsions I can't medicate Trying hard to fill the space Of never feeling safe in place And faded nights you held me close Were the only times I felt whole Now your eyes look through my skin Like you stopped letting me in [BRIDGE – soft, devastating] I've been having dreams of you Smiling like you used to do Before resentment changed your face Before love turned into a place And I don't know what I'm supposed to be If growth still isn't enough to see I killed the version you believed Now I'm just haunting everything [OUTRO – quiet, collapsing] I need some time to rest my head Lay my back down on your bed One day you'll wake up, look instead And feel nothing for the words you said
