[Verse 1] Mother of my child wanted me To watch the kid that night Told her no, this room ain't somewhere I'm bringing a child inside Too much shit around me Nothing about it safe Then she found out where I stayed And called the cops my way To many warrants on my name Funniest part She called me afterward Just to make me scared Told me where she sent 'em Before they even got there Hit the front office Told the man the truth Cops are coming for me I need another room [Verse 2] He did me a solid Handed me the keys Kept the other room rented Still registered to me Moved across the hall Stayed behind the curtain Sirens pulled into the lot Now I knew for certain Watched 'em walk up Watched 'em hit the door Finding nothing but my shit In an empty fucking room Sitting twenty feet away Quiet as I could Sometimes surviving something Looks stupidly simple When it works [Chorus] How the fuck was that normal? How'd that ever feel like life? Cops outside the motel Blood running down my thigh Sleeping underneath the river Waiting for the morning light How the fuck was that normal? Why didn't anything feel strange? Another room Another alley Another fucked-up day Looking back from nineteen years I can finally see the change Nothing about that shit was normal It just felt that way Looking back now It's fucked up what felt normal then Another room Another alley Another way I slipped Nothing written in the sky Just shit that really happened And somehow I survived [Verse 3] Economy Inn Room spinning Pockets bone dry Hit the neighbor's door Looking to get high Stepped out the bathroom Something fucking changed Dresser at the door Blinds pulled down Three people going insane "Cops everywhere!" I looked outside Nobody there Spent an hour telling them There's nothing fucking there But paranoia doesn't listen When it's already in the room So I finally said Give me everything you got I'll get it out of here for you [Verse 4] Eventually they agreed Handed me the half ounce Packed it up Zipped it tight Dressed in black Climbed out Cut through the alley Then I heard an engine coming Found a crack beside the wall Barely wide enough for my body Pressed my back against the brick Didn't move Didn't breathe Cruiser rolled right past me Maybe two feet Between the cops and me And after spending an hour Telling everybody else There weren't any cops outside Well There fucking were now [Verse 5] Kept moving through the dark Headed toward the river There were caves dug in the sand Wood and dirt across the top Crawled inside Stayed there Half ounce still with me Nothing else to do Got high underground While dogs barked somewhere outside Stayed there long enough For darkness to turn light Then my phone starts ringing They want their shit back [Verse 6] Told 'em I got chased Told 'em I had to ditch it Gave 'em somewhere else to look Sent 'em digging for nothing Meanwhile I'm still sitting there With everything they gave me Started that night broke Didn't end it Quite the same way Nothing clever about it Nothing noble either Just another fucked-up night From when that shit felt normal [Chorus] How the fuck was that normal? How'd that ever feel like life? Cops outside the motel Blood running down my thigh Sleeping underneath the river Waiting for the morning light How the fuck was that normal? Why didn't anything feel strange? Another room Another alley Another fucked-up day Looking back from nineteen years I can finally see the change Nothing about that shit was normal It just felt that way Looking back now It's fucked up what felt normal And somehow I survived [Verse 7] Cut my knuckle to the bone Couldn't let it bend Duct-taped it to some tweezers Just to hold the finger straight Headed to an apartment For a twenty-dollar bag Three Paso 13 Coming out from the side Blade against my throat Tweezers caught the edge Metal bought me time Grabbed the blade against my neck Pulled my own knife from my side Caught one in the body Cut another in the arm Nothing glorious about it Everybody doing harm [Verse 8] Then they got my knife Put a hole into my thigh And I remember thinking "Are you fucking serious? All this over twenty dollars?" Threw the bag at 'em Take the fucking shit Give me back my knife And something for my leg I'm done with this Got my knife back Got something for the blood Duct tape around my thigh Walked out when I could Two weeks later An apology showed up Half ounce of weed Like that somehow Settled up Said he was impressed By the way I held my ground I didn't feel impressive I was happy I got out Funny what the mind remembers After everything gets still Nineteen years can change the view Without changing what occurred
