Somewhere Safe to Grow

BLOOD RED FIRE [Verse 1] I got blood-red fire running through my veins, Too many little cuts, too many fucking games. I swallowed every comment, cleaned up every mess, While everybody watched to see how much I’d take next. You push and you push till my hands start to shake, Then act fucking shocked when you finally see me break. Everybody loves the calm before the flame, Then the second I explode, I’m the crazy one again. [Pre-Chorus] No— You don’t get to light the match Then blame me for the smoke. You don’t get to pull me under Then laugh because I choke. [Chorus] I need to run, run, run from here, Before this blood-red fire burns through everything I love. Baby, I still want you— That’s what makes this hurt so much. I want our roots to grow, I want a life that’s ours, But I can’t fucking bloom In somebody else’s garbage yard. So come with me or give me room, I need clean air, I need somewhere new. I’m not running from our love— I’m running so it survives. There’s blood-red fire in my veins, And I’m trying to keep us alive. [Verse 2] And while we’re talking truth, let’s talk about the filth, The dirt you learn to live with till you swear it doesn’t exist. I got sick inside a place nobody wants to clean, Then somehow I’m dramatic for saying what I’ve seen. Grow the fuck up—there’s a thousand videos online, Soap isn’t witchcraft, cleaning doesn’t take a fucking degree to find. I shouldn’t have to sacrifice my body for your ways, Then smile across the table like everything’s okay. [Breakdown] I’m done being used. Done being convenient. Done being manipulated Then punished when I see it. And I can’t be around you right now. No dinner. No visits. No pretending we’re all fine. Because every time I swallow my boundaries Someone takes another bite. [Bridge – softer] Baby, I don’t want to lose you. I want to grow old somewhere clean and quiet, Where love doesn’t come with another fucking riot. I want to wake beside you without armor on my chest, Build something gentle where our nervous systems rest. Maybe loving you means finally saying I can’t keep living this way. Maybe choosing us means choosing distance From the people who keep setting me ablaze. [Final Chorus – explosive] So I need to run, run, run from here, Before this blood-red fire turns into another wasted year. I fucking love you— That’s exactly why I’m drawing this line. I won’t let their dysfunction Become the ending of yours and mine. Let our roots grow somewhere They don’t have to fight to survive. I’m not running from you, baby— I’m running toward our life. Blood-red fire in my veins, But there’s still love inside. I’ll burn the road behind me Before I let our future die. [Outro] Call me crazy if you need to. I’ve worn that fucking name before. But this time when I feel the fire— I’m walking out the door. Not out of love. Not out of us. Out of the place that made me burn. If you want this love to grow— Then give it somewhere safe to grow.