My Addiction, My Surrender (V3 nu-metal)

Do ya wanna lie to yourself, with me. .... ... How many times do I have to stumble, to realize I need to get humble. Recognize I can't keep it straight, all because a good time, makes me feel like I belong. Yet I can't keep the bottle down. .. .... Can you admit the lie? That you can't stop? You don't see ... How much it's become a crutch... ... The Alcohol, The sweet bitter liquid, It's a problem, Not an equalizer. It's My Addiction. The thing I thought, made me whole. Yet I recognize, To get whole, I have to give up this Vice. Baby Girl, This Is My Surrender, To trying to drink myself to death.... ... One always led to twenty more. A room with buddies, who hate the pain like you. It's always easy to stop, it's the lie I tell myself. Not realizing I already had one, in the chamber. I'm never going to stop. Not able to. I'm going to not wake up someday, all because I believed my own lie. .. .... Can you admit the lie? That you can't stop? You don't see ... How much it's become a crutch... ... The Alcohol, The sweet bitter liquid, It's a problem, Not an equalizer. It's My Addiction. The thing I thought, made me whole. Yet I recognize, To get whole, I have to give up this Vice. Baby Girl, This Is My Surrender, To trying to drink myself to death.... ... Had to look inside myself. Realize why I do it. It's an extension of my trauma. My coping mechanism. It's ruined my mind. So I'm answering my own call, to change. If I want to live longer than Fifty, I have to leave the bottle.... To you. .... I want to be okay.... I don't want to be Addicted anymore... ... .. .... Can I admit the lie? That I can't stop? I just don't see ... How much it's my crutch... ... The Alcohol, The sweet bitter liquid, It's a problem,(My biggest problem) Not an equalizer. It's My Addiction. (My Downfall) The thing I thought, made me whole. (Just washed it away) Yet I recognize, To get whole, (To be a better man) I have to give up this Vice. Baby Girl, This Is My Surrender, (This is Me, Letting Go) To trying to drink myself to a grave... It's not bringing anyone back, It's more than Twelve Steps, But One day at a time, I'll be able to live without a goodbye... ... [Spoken word outro] My Name is Jack, and I'm an alcoholic and addict in Recovery