i left the light on like a bad habit like break me once then come back and stab it you didn’t knock you never do just dragged your dirt all over my room i make it pretty so it don’t scare me lip gloss lies but they don’t taste cherry say it’s nothing say i’m chill i hand you the blade then watch you get your fill i don’t slam doors i leave them wide so when it hurts i’ve got somewhere to hide should’ve kept it closed clo clo closed now you’re in my mouth mouth full, aroused you linger in me like a bruise that grows press on the ache and it always shows i say i’m fine but my body knows should’ve kept it clo clo closed you take what you want then call it affection leave me twitching like bad direction you say you care with your hands in my throat call it a hug but it feels like a choke i play it cool like i don’t mind but you leave your fingerprints deep in my spine and every laugh comes out like smoke like something dying every time i joke i knew better i knew better i just— i wanted it loud i wanted it messy i wanted it real even if it wrecked me you didn’t even have to push i just folded wide open i hear it click but it’s too late now too far gone to renegotiate now i let you in and i hate it now clo clo clo closed don’t don’t don’t should’ve kept it closed clo clo closed now you’re in my mouth mouth full, aroused you bruise me deeper every time i fold press on the ache till it splits and shows i say i’m fine but my body knows should’ve kept it clo clo closed next time i lock it i swear i lock it …i leave it open
