[Verse 1] I count the doors I never opened By the paint beneath my hands Keep a map inside my pocket Of a place I never planned Every answer grows a question Every yes leaves something out I can name the shape of wanting I just can't name what it's about [Pre-Chorus] If I stop, will I disappear? If I stay, will I become clear? [Chorus] I am more than the measure More than the mark on the wall Still I carry every number Like a verdict when I fall Tell me, what am I defending? Who am I trying to impress? I keep building up the ceiling Then I blame the room for less [Verse 2] There’s a receipt inside my jacket For a promise I returned I remember all the reasons And the lesson never learned Friends can hear it in my laughter When the room begins to thin I say everything is golden While the doubt keeps getting in [Pre-Chorus] If I stop, will I disappear? If I stay, will I become clear? [Chorus] I am more than the measure More than the mark on the wall Still I carry every number Like a verdict when I fall Tell me, what am I defending? Who am I trying to impress? I keep building up the ceiling Then I blame the room for less [Bridge] Put the ledger on the table Let the red ink run I was never made of outcomes I was made of what I’ve done One breath, then another No bargain, no disguise There is nothing left to conquer When I finally meet my eyes [Final Chorus] I am more than the measure More than the mark on the wall I can carry all the fractures And still answer when they call Tell me, what am I defending? I can loosen my grip tonight Let the unfinished stay unfinished Let the small thing be enough this time [Outro] This time The small thing is enough This time I am here
