Kept in check…

>[Intro] >[Verse 1] I’ve been an underdog Got lucky with a good family to check My Dad’s family, who I keep in touch with I did dope when I was twelve, but quit after my dad found out Wondered, why don’t I have it figured out Writing this down, I’m dining out I got ways to cope in Staying in Christ, who calls me when I’m a wreck Thank God for the good Dad who is kept on check Who keeps me in check Saying, trying raise good men Told him don’t worry, I won’t do dope again If I did, then I would’ve lost my hope Cause you can’t cope with the dope With there ain’t no hope So how do I really cope? >[Pre-Chorus] CDE, stop cutting yourself now that you got hope >[Chorus] Got Christ, burning through pages Got God, he’s my wages Sin leaving from the stages >[Verse 2] Addiction crept in again Had to go to God to hold me down Friends holding me accountable From what I was about to do AB saying that you need to stop that Stop cutting yourself, stop hurting yourself She ain’t gone, she’s with Christ Told me to remember why I’m living Told me to remember who is loving me Thanks AB, JS, Zach, and Z Elias saying that he dealing with the same thing Told him the same, told me that we all care for him >[Pre-Chorus] Don’t let sin win, CDE >[Chorus] Got Christ, burning through pages Got God, he’s my wages Sin leaving from the stages >[Verse 3] I get nightmares, stages of life full of drama The reasons I’m scared of friends that leave I don’t tell my friends, but these cuts on my wrist is to hide my real fears That I’m afraid of people that ain’t near One of the bros made it worse when he got a GF He says it not that serious But the gift you gonna give is a wedding ring So don’t tell me that it doesn’t bring the pain Trying so hard, but that’s the fault I have That I gotta be enough But Christ died to be my way to cope So I don’t have to be living in stress Learning how to cope in chaos When the times be driving me crazy But at least they know, I hate being lazy >[Bridge] I’m going crazy My words coming out hazy I need Christ to tell me That he’ll never leave me At least that I know he loves me >[Verse 4] Try to find peace But I can’t focus when I’ma broken piece Preparing like I got to go on a race track Shaking off the dark thoughts like the wind sways Laughing nervously to get rid of the real fears But AB said we got to talk And I said I’d rather not Uneasy cause now my friends know It’s a really bad sign Mom went to the pharmacy Said try these meds Tried the anti-depressants But I hate it cause it makes me feel fake But AB and the guys say that I need to pray And I prolly do, but I’m too scared to talk But they said I didn’t have to Just stay their so they could pray for me So that my worries and fears could go away Maybe That’s all I need I already know to be alive is alive in Christ But I didn’t live it like that Instead I let the demons tell me that That- that- that That everyone’s here to hurt me But that’s no true, cause they pray for me And I need to let go cause I got to attached Like I’m some parasite And I my scars were a sight But every scar is a sign of how God has won >[Finale-Chorus] I don’t need to fear God’s got me I don’t need to the dope God’s got me I don’t need to be alone God’s got me Even when my bros ain’t there Then God’s got me >[Outro]