Heart by Static Theory

[Intro — clean guitar arpeggios, low synth drone, distant turntable crackle, slow heavy drum hits; whispered melodic vocals] I'm tired of pretending I'm tired of the show I'm tired of the person They want me to be [Verse 1 — restrained distorted guitar, plodding live drums, deep synth bass, subtle turntable scratches; weary melodic vocals] I've been trying to fit into the shape they drew for me Coloring inside the lines so no one ever sees The parts of me that don't align, the pieces that don't fit I've been biting down on everything and swallowing the spit They say "Be grateful for the life we gave you, don't complain" They say "We only want the best for you, don't be a pain" And I nod and say "I know" while something inside me dies Another piece of who I am behind my tired eyes I don't remember when I stopped feeling anything at all I just know the fire faded and I built a thicker wall I used to care so deeply, now I'm hollow and I'm cold And I'm too exhausted to remember what it felt like to be whole [Pre-Chorus — guitar swells slightly, drums grow heavier, synth rises, turntable filter sweep; numb melodic vocals] Maybe this is normal Maybe this is fine Maybe I've forgotten What it's like to feel alive [Chorus — heavy melodic guitars, crashing live drums, swirling synth layers, subdued turntable textures; powerfully weary vocals] My heart is beating but I don't feel a thing My heart is bleeding but I can't feel the sting My heart is breaking and I'm watching it fall My heart is empty and I don't care at all My heart, my heart, my heart I'm so numb I can't restart [Verse 2 — syncopated palm-muted guitar, heavy half-time drums, dark synth arpeggio, turntable stutters; emotionally drained melodic vocals] I go through all the motions, I say the things I'm supposed to say I show up to the places, I perform another day But there's a glass between me and the world I'm walking through And I can't break it down no matter what I do They ask me how I'm feeling, I say "I'm okay" and smile And they believe the lie because I've practiced it awhile I've gotten good at hiding in the middle of a crowd I've gotten good at screaming when I'm not making a sound I want to feel something, anything at all I want to care about the things that used to make me fall But I'm so deep inside this fog I don't remember the way Back to the person I was before I turned to gray [Pre-Chorus — rising distorted guitars, stronger drums, swelling synth, turntable rewind; desperate melodic vocals] Maybe this is normal Maybe this is fine Maybe I've forgotten What it's like to feel alive [Chorus — crushing distorted guitars, crashing live drums, thick synth layers, rapid turntable scratches; powerful weary vocals] My heart is beating but I don't feel a thing My heart is bleeding but I can't feel the sting My heart is breaking and I'm watching it fall My heart is empty and I don't care at all My heart, my heart, my heart I'm so numb I can't restart [Guitar Solo — melodic guitar solo with subdued anger, aching bends, muted harmonics and fading feedback; heavy plodding live drums, deep synth bass and soft turntable scratches] [Bridge — clean guitar arpeggios, sparse drums gradually building, distant synth atmosphere, turntable vinyl crackle; soft melodic vocals growing stronger] I remember feeling sunlight on my face I remember laughing without needing to escape I remember caring so much it hurt I remember being more than just a ghost in this shirt I want to feel that again I want to feel that again I want to feel something Anything [Breakdown — low guitar chugs, pounding half-time live drums, distorted synth bass, sharp turntable cuts; intense shouted singing] I'M NOT DEAD YET! I'M NOT GONE! I'M STILL FIGHTING TO HOLD ON! I WON'T LET THEM! I WON'T LET ME! I WON'T LET THIS NUMBNESS BE THE END OF ME! [Final Chorus — massive distorted guitars, huge live drums, soaring synth, frantic turntable scratches; fierce desperate vocals] My heart is beating and I want to feel again My heart is bleeding and I'm learning how to mend My heart is breaking but I'm picking up the parts My heart is waking and I'm finding my restart My heart, my heart, my heart I'm not numb, I'm just scarred My heart, my heart, my heart I'm still here, I'm still fighting I still have a heart [Outro — fading clean guitar harmonics, soft synth pulse, restrained live drums, turntable scratches slowing to silence; whispered melodic vocals] My heart It's still there My heart Somewhere underneath the fear My heart I'll find you again My heart This isn't the end