[Intro Screaming tension, distorted guitars rev up, then drop into an eerie silence with a whisper] [Guitar Solo] I’m not okay… I'm not okay I'm not.. I’ve never been okay… And I’m done pretending I will be. [Verse 1 Heavy riff, fast-paced, spit with anger and exhaustion] I’m sick of running from the voices in my head They’re not even mine, but they talk all the time Tired of hearing “it gets better someday” While I’m screaming in silence, just fading away They say “hold on,” but they don’t see What it’s like when the dark is a part of me I try to sleep, but it’s never enough Every breath is a war and I’m giving up [Pre-Chorus Pause, build-up with echoing harmonics] I thought I could fight it But the weight is too strong Every smile feels fake And this pain’s been too long [Pre-Chorus Pause, build-up with echoing harmonics] I thought I could fight it But the weight is too strong Every smile feels fake And this pain’s been too long [Chorus Explosive, layered vocals, pure emotional outburst] I’m giving in, I’m checking out This life ain’t what it’s all about Don’t cry for me, I’ve already bled Don’t pray for me… I’m already dead I tried, I swore, I gave it my best But there’s no more peace inside my chest I’m done pretending, done with regret Don’t wait for me… I’m already dead [Verse 2 More melodic, spoken/sung like Mike Shinoda style, with desperation] When I close my eyes, I see my kids Their faces break me, like a thousand hits But even love feels miles away When the storm inside won’t fade I thought I could carry this curse alone But it’s dragging me under like a stone I isolate, I medicate, just to breathe But it’s dragging me under like a stone I isolate, I medicate, just to breathe But even clean, I still can’t leave [Bridge Stripped down, vocals raw and cracked, heart wrenching] I called for help, I begged for light But even angels turn away at night I never wanted to feel this numb But I’ve become what I tried to outrun [Breakdown Screamed with all-out rage like Chester] I'M DONE! I'M DONE! I'M FUCKING DONE PRETENDING ! I’M NOT OKAY .STOP DEFENDING! This isn’t life ..it’s slow decay Don’t try to save what’s already frayed! [Final Chorus Bigger, layered, choir behind the main vocal] I’m giving in, I’m checking out This life ain’t what it’s all about Don’t cry for me, I’ve already bled Don’t pray for me… I’m already dead I fought like hell, but I’m losing ground Every scream just echoes now Don’t lie to me, don’t say it’s in my head Just let me go… I’m already dead [Outro Haunting echoes, gentle piano under fading screams] "I gave it all… I gave too much…" "But it was never enough..." "Never enough..."
