Next to me, nowhere near me (version 1)

Almost Knew Better 🥀

indie folk, intimate, moody, emotional female vocal

[intimate piano intro]
[very intimate vocal delivery]

[Verse 1]

I wish I could
hold you

right now

But the timing
just isn’t

right

Your eyes give
it away

before you say
a word

before you disappear

into
the night

You fight the clock
race

against time

scrambling
just to prepare

yourself

to compartmentalize

the feelings

you can’t
bear

But no amount
of mental drawers

you built
to hide things

can contain
what you brush off

what you avoid

Those aren’t
“keep inside” things

Those aren’t
“just hide them” things

They’re the kind
of truths

you can’t pretend
aren’t there

[Pre-Chorus]

Out of sight
isn’t out

of mind

Those feelings
linger

they still sting

burning slowly
from the inside

out

I see it
in your eyes

The tears
you refuse

to cry

flow quietly
behind

that brave face

trying to push
the fear

back
inside

[Soft Refrain]

Tension

silence

distance cuts

so deep

Holding tight

to a promise

I made

one I’m not sure

I can keep

I swear

I’m trying

every day

to find

the balance

between

what you want

what you need

and helping you

find
your way

[Verse 2]

I told myself

I wouldn’t
do this

wouldn’t make

your pain
mine

But when you love
too hard

and feel
so much

it’s bound
to happen

every time

I wish I could say

that someday

soon

this will all fade

in the rearview

And I hope

we’ll watch it

disappear

in a mirror

big enough

for two

[Bridge]

I wish I knew

what to do

how to help you

see this through

I’m holding

tight

but late
at night

I wake up

missing you

I’ve tried every way

I know

to show you

that I care

that I’m here

still here

that my love

is true

But there’s not much

I can do

Our roots are strong

facing the sun

but dark clouds threaten

like a loaded gun

They block the light

inside this room

and our flower

never blooms

[Soft Refrain]

Tension

silence

distance cuts

so deep

Holding tight

to a promise

I made

one I’m not sure

I can keep

I swear

I’m trying

every day

to find

the balance

between

what you want

what you need

and helping you

find
your way

[Very Quiet Outro]

Truly

I hope your future

is bright

as it can be

I hope life finds you

picks you up

dusts you off

sets you free

and reminds you

how beautiful

things can be

even if

that life

doesn’t end up

with me

But selfishly

I really hope

I’m there

to see the relief

in your eyes

when life finally

lets you

come up

for air

and we can share

that moment

that space

somewhere

once you’ve made it

through

just us
two

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[intimate piano intro] [very intimate vocal delivery] [Verse 1] I wish I could hold you right now But the timing just isn’t right Your eyes give it away before you say a word before you disappear into the night You fight the clock race against time scrambling just to prepare yourself to compartmentalize the feelings you can’t bear But no amount of mental drawers you built to hide things can contain what you brush off what you avoid Those aren’t “keep inside” things Those aren’t “just hide them” things They’re the kind of truths you can’t pretend aren’t there [Pre-Chorus] Out of sight isn’t out of mind Those feelings linger they still sting burning slowly from the inside out I see it in your eyes The tears you refuse to cry flow quietly behind that brave face trying to push the fear back inside [Soft Refrain] Tension silence distance cuts so deep Holding tight to a promise I made one I’m not sure I can keep I swear I’m trying every day to find the balance between what you want what you need and helping you find your way [Verse 2] I told myself I wouldn’t do this wouldn’t make your pain mine But when you love too hard and feel so much it’s bound to happen every time I wish I could say that someday soon this will all fade in the rearview And I hope we’ll watch it disappear in a mirror big enough for two [Bridge] I wish I knew what to do how to help you see this through I’m holding tight but late at night I wake up missing you I’ve tried every way I know to show you that I care that I’m here still here that my love is true But there’s not much more I can do Our roots are strong facing the sun but dark clouds threaten like a loaded gun They block the light inside this room and our flower never blooms [Soft Refrain] Tension silence distance cuts so deep Holding tight to a promise I made one I’m not sure I can keep I swear I’m trying every day to find the balance between what you want what you need and helping you find your way [Very Quiet Outro] Truly I hope your future is bright as it can be I hope life finds you picks you up dusts you off sets you free and reminds you how beautiful things can be even if that life doesn’t end up with me But selfishly I really hope I’m there to see the relief in your eyes when life finally lets you come up for air and we can share that moment that space somewhere once you’ve made it through just us two

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