Verse 1 They kneel in front of me with bags on their heads like it’s easier this way like faces make it worse I tell myself there’s a trick a rule I missed a way to walk out without becoming this I pull the first one free He’s young and he’s shaking and he says no like it still matters I say I’m sorry and I don’t know why because my hands don’t stop just because I cry I do what she asked and the world keeps going and something in me does not ⸻ Refrain I did what she asked I did what she asked and something in me did not live through it ⸻ Verse 2 The second one’s calm already somewhere else she asks me to make it quick then closes her eyes herself She prays and I nod like that changes the weight I do it fast like mercy counts like speed can save what it breaks My hands are shaking now and I know this stays ⸻ Refrain (Variation) I did what she asked I did what she asked and something in me is gone for good ⸻ Bridge Then she says his name I’m crying before I turn because I already know this isn’t mercy this is worse The bag comes off and it’s him blood on his chest eyes still open I don’t hear the room I don’t hear her I just need it to end I strike The blade stops wrong stone where a heart should be for one breath I think I’ve killed him anyway Then he breathes ⸻ Final Refrain / Outro I did what she asked and she screamed instead because I wasn’t meant to win this I did what she asked and I’m still alive but something in me stayed there And it never comes back
