Paranoid [Verse 1] Can’t even blink without the ceiling breathing back at me, Every quiet second feels like someone’s keeping track of me. Can’t even think without a trial in my head, Every thought I try to keep gets cross-examined, left for dead. Privacy’s a prayer that never makes it past my teeth, There’s a shadow in the mirror that keeps standing underneath. Their voices wear my voice like a skin I can’t destroy— If I silence them, would I recognize the noise? [Pre-Chorus] If the shame went quiet for a minute or two, Would I finally hear something kinder come through? Would I feel my weight, would I take up space— Or collapse when I meet my own face? ⸻ [Chorus] Am I—am I—am I paranoid? No one in the room but I still avoid Every open window, every naked truth— I shower in my clothes like I’ve got something to lose. Am I—am I—am I paranoid? Or just so used to being destroyed By eyes that don’t exist but feel employed— God, tell me—am I paranoid? ⸻ [Verse 2] It’s torture wanting silence like a lover you can’t keep, Just to sit inside yourself without performing how you breathe. To let your shoulders drop, let the armor hit the floor, But the second that you try, there’s a knock behind the door. You know they’re watching—God, you swear you feel them there, And it poisons how you move, how you think, how you compare. Now there’s a wall between you and the person you could be, And the worst part is—they built it out of me. ⸻ [Pre-Chorus 2] Can’t write it down, can’t let it live on a page, What if they read it, what if they gauge Every weakness, every line I defend— And I start to believe them again? ⸻ [Chorus] Am I—am I—am I paranoid? No one in the room but I still avoid Every open window, every naked truth— I shower in my clothes like I’ve got something to lose. Am I—am I—am I paranoid? Or just so used to being destroyed By eyes that don’t exist but feel employed— God, tell me—am I paranoid? ⸻ [Bridge — explosion] Fight or flight in every breath I take, Even stillness feels like a mistake. If I disappear, would they let me fade— Or follow me into the grave I made? I just wanna be alone—just for a second, just to feel What it’s like to drop the mask and know that something here is real. No surveillance in my veins, no judgment in my bones— Just a body, just a mind, just a moment that is mine alone. ⸻ [Final Chorus — stripped + lift] Am I—am I—am I paranoid? Or was I never meant to feel this void? No one here—but I still can’t breathe right, Still sleep with every corner in my sight. Am I—am I—am I paranoid? Or just a soul that got too self-employed In tearing every inch of me apart— God… is it them— or is it my own heart?
