
No Longer For Me
Under the hum Under the lights They say my name like they made it up My chest keeps count of what I don't say My girls tape their pictures to the walls My son still counts the days They don't know what they're holding up Thank God for the hands that pull me back Thank God for the reasons I can't quit The dark keeps calling, keeps calling me in But this life's not mine to give I'm no longer for me They describe a version of me I've never met I swallow what my body wants to say I'm running on the fumes of yesterday Tryin’ to build little worlds my kids get to keep You say love the ones who wound me That's the hardest thing You've asked Cuz my hands keep making fists From everything I can't say back Thank God for the hands that pull me back Thank God for the reasons I can't quit The dark keeps calling, keeps calling me in But this life's not mine to give I'm no longer for me They can keep the title They can keep the story Whatever lets them sleep My name was spoken first By a voice that doesn't leave So let these hands stay open Even when they shake I'll be the ground beneath I'll be what doesn't break You’ve always been that for me… Thank God for the hands that hold me still Thank God for the ones who know my name The dark can keep on calling I know who I am And I'm no longer for me I'm no longer for me Written to the bone This life was never mine I was always Yours alone

