A quiet house, a quiet room, A shadow growing in the gloom. I tried to run, I tried to hide, From all the venom kept inside... But you can't run when the monster is you! There is a hollow beneath my ribs, A frozen child sleeping in the dark. I carried poison in my quiet steps, A walking curse, a dying mark. Then came the water, cold and foul, The tearing teeth, the dying breath— I felt my own flesh turn to ash, And woke up ravenous for death. Every voice is a blade in the dark, Twisted words in the ringing air. They scream my name, they call me beast, I hear the hatred everywhere. It fills the air, it fills my veins, The black smoke will rise— It burns my eyes! Hate the skin I’m rotting in! Hate the monster in my chest! If hatred is my only crown, I’ll lay this rotten world to rest! I am the plague! I am the hate! Born from the dark they threw away! I hate myself, I hate this world— Hate! I hate! Hate! I hate you all! Red on my fingers, sweet on my tongue, A terrible thrill I cannot erase. I felt the pulse, I drank the heat, And saw my shadow in a dying face. Then came her hug, forgiving and soft, Bleeding against me as her eyes went dim— She loved me through the blood on my chest, And left me suffocating in my sin! Hate the skin I’m rotting in! Hate the monster in my chest! If hatred is my only crown, I’ll lay this rotten world to rest! I am the plague! I am the hate! Born from the dark they threw away! I hate myself, I hate this world— Hate! I hate! Hate! I hate you all! I tear at my chest, I dig through the bone! I scream at the reflection staring at me! I am disgusting! I am damned! There’s nothing pure left for them to see! Let the grace shatter! Let the light burn out! I spit on the divine, I swallow the smoke— If hatred is all that’s left of my soul, Then let it crown me as I choke! Hate the skin I’m rotting in! Hate the monster in my chest! If hatred is my only crown, I’ll lay this rotten world to rest! I am the plague! I am the hate! Born from the dark they threw away! I hate myself, I hate this world— Hate! I hate! Hate! I hate you all! Whisper to the dark... I broke my own heart. You didn't make this monster, I tore myself apart! I don't want your world... I just want to burn. I am Hatred. And I hate myself most of all.
