CODE BLACK [Verse 1] The apartment hums like an unplugged machine Fridge light flickers over nicotine I count the hours in ambulance blue Tryin’ to make a body feel brand new And the vultures keep circling low overhead Like they can smell the fever inside my head Every prayer sounds prerecorded now Every “you’ll get through it” thinner somehow There’s a stain on the sink shaped just like a scream I swear this city learns your weaknesses Then sells them back as dreams ⸻ [Pre-Chorus] And my mind goes code black Static in the bloodstream I keep smiling in photographs Like nobody hears the sirens in me ⸻ [Chorus] Code black, code black Something flatlines when I try to fight back Thoughts held hostage behind my teeth Everybody wants a piece of me And the vultures sing sweet Like they love me while they pick me clean God, I’m still here somehow Half miracle, half comedown Code black But my heart still pounds ⸻ [Verse 2] The mirror keeps a file on me Every bruise, every almost tragedy Mascara ghosts under tired eyes Pretty little evidence I survived And I know what it’s like To romanticize ruin Turn pain into poetry Just to keep moving But there’s nothing glamorous About shaking alone at 3AM Begging your own reflection Not to disappear again ⸻ [Pre-Chorus] My friends say, “You’re getting better now” Maybe they just got used to the damage Maybe survival only means You learned how to hide the panic ⸻ [Chorus] Code black, code black Something flatlines when I try to fight back Thoughts held hostage behind my teeth Everybody wants a piece of me And the vultures sing sweet Like they love me while they pick me clean God, I’m still here somehow Half miracle, half comedown Code black But my heart still pounds ⸻ [Bridge] No saints came running No movie scene No heaven opening up for me Just cheap wine breath And hospital light And me learning slowly How to stay alive I used to think healing Would feel holy and bright But mostly it feels like Coming home after a fight Still bleeding Still breathing Same thing some nights ⸻ [Final Chorus] Code black, code black Hear my pulse crawling its way back Thoughts like knives under my tongue But I survived what I’ve become And the vultures still wait By the edges of my bad days But they don’t know me now I’m harder to kill somehow Code black And my heart still pounds Code black And my heart still pounds
