[Verse 1] I still hear it sometimes in the back of my mind Old words with new faces and I hate that I mind You laugh like a safe place then it hits me like that One look, one small motion and I’m right back I’m not tryna accuse you I’m just tryna stay here But my chest gets too loud when a ghost gets near I can love you for real and still flinch in the dark Some scars don’t need a knife they just stay in the heart [Pre-Chorus] So if I go quiet it ain’t all on you I’m fighting old movies that I never outgrew If I need a minute let me breathe, let me move I’m learning how to tell you what my mind puts me through [Chorus] Back of my mind back of my mind Some old pain stays back of my mind If I get triggered it don’t mean you’re bad I’m just unpacking what I never had Back of my mind back of my mind I need a safe place to unload my mind [Verse 2] Had friends turn cold then act like nothing changed Had trust get broken by a smile with no shame So when you pull away or you switch up your tone My body starts talking like I’m here alone I hate how fast my thoughts can run wild I see one sharp moment and I’m back in a child Looking over my shoulder for the hurt in the room Even in a good day I can still smell the doom But I’m trying to heal not just hide from the rain Trying to name all the bruises without feeding the pain [Pre-Chorus] So if I go quiet it ain’t all on you I’m fighting old movies that I never outgrew If I need a minute let me breathe, let me move I’m learning how to tell you what my mind puts me through [Chorus] Back of my mind back of my mind Some old pain stays back of my mind If I get triggered it don’t mean you’re bad I’m just unpacking what I never had Back of my mind back of my mind I need a safe place to unload my mind [Bridge] Let me vent, let it out before it turns into stone I don’t wanna build a wall just because I feel alone Say it straight, stay soft when you see me slip away I’m not asking you to fix me just don’t walk away I’m still here I’m still trying Little by little I’m untying [Chorus] Back of my mind back of my mind Some old pain stays back of my mind If I get triggered it don’t mean you’re bad I’m just unpacking what I never had Back of my mind back of my mind I need a safe place to unload my mind
