[Intro — Soft acoustic guitar, slow fiddle] Dear God… I don’t understand. I don’t know how. [Verse 1] I don’t know how to be perfect A person, a wife, or a mother I’ve tried to forgive Lord knows I did I wanted to walk beside my lover For all of our lives Through the lows and the highs But when do I throw in the towel? When is enough Finally enough? Dear God, can You hear me now? [Verse 2] My whole life feels like a series Of hard and traumatic things One after another I wonder, dear Father What kind of love did I dream? Was I naive? A hopeless romantic? Or blindly looking to find The love and admiration I built in my imagination That somehow got lost over time? [Chorus — Raw, aching vocals] When is enough, enough? When does holding on mean letting go? How can I love somebody so much And still feel so alone? I’m stiff, I’m scared I’m traumatized But I still want him by my side Oh, dear God I’m asking You When is enough, enough? [Verse 3] I told my husband I don’t want him Don’t want to be his wife no more But deep down inside There’s a love I can’t hide And it hurts like it never did before He says that I’ve changed His charm ain’t the same But I ain’t rejecting him to be cruel I’m just tired of the pain And the things that remain When forgiveness don’t make something new [Verse 4 — Quiet, almost whispered melody] I want to be better I want to look past All the bad and have something beautiful A normal old life With my babies and husband But I’m tired, and he’s tired too I’m devastated And what hurts me the most Ain’t even the things that he’s done It’s that he can’t seem To feel what they mean Or face what he’s taken from us [Chorus — Fiddle swells] When is enough, enough? When does holding on mean letting go? How can I love somebody so much And still feel so alone? I’m stiff, I’m scared I’m traumatized But I still want him by my side Oh, dear God I’m asking You When is enough, enough? [Bridge — Sparse guitar, intimate vocals] God, I’m writing You ‘Cause I want us to be okay Me and Mason and our children I don’t want it all to fade I want us together But I fear he can’t face himself And I guess if I’m being truthful I can’t quite face myself I’ve been smoking through the sorrow Trying not to feel today Trying to outrun tomorrow While yesterday won’t go away I’m ugly right now, God I’m stuck inside my hurt Stuck in all the bad things And wondering what I’m worth Maybe it’s a story That I keep telling myself But God, if You can hear me I sure could use Your help [Final Chorus — Gentle, almost breaking] When is enough, enough? When does holding on mean letting go? If loving him means losing me Is that the love I’m supposed to know? I’m stiff, I’m scared I’m traumatized And I’ve cried a thousand times But dear God I’m asking You Please help me decide [Outro — Fingerpicked guitar, fading fiddle] Please help my husband He deserves a life Please help my children Please help me tonight I wanted forever I wanted us whole I wanted a family A place to call home I’m tired, God And he’s tired too I don’t know what I’m supposed to do Please help me decide According to Your will I trust You, God… I love him still. Love, Brooke.
