She walked along the desert with hunger and with fear Feeling like the world she loved just disappeared Everything she cared about was fading in the heat Every step felt heavier than the burning of her feet She kept saying it’s just a phase, she’ll fix it when she can Kept telling every mirror she’s still the same as then But silence gets addictive when there’s no one left to call And sometimes losing everything feels easier than a fall Her feeling went from low to deep, like sinking in a well Madness moved inside her head and made itself a shell On the horizon stood a building like a promise in disguise Broken walls and spider silk beneath a bleeding sky The spiders in my lair keep telling me she knew That church was never mercy it was something she outgrew They say she saw the doorway and she chose to step inside They say the fear felt warmer than the world she left behind The spiders in my lair keep pulling at the thread From the desert to the temple to the hunger in her head They say she wasn’t hunted, she was tired of the fight They say the dark felt honest when the day refused to light The spiders in my lair keep whispering it’s true Nobody forced her forward she knew what she would do They say the altar waited like a mirror made of glass They say she saw her future standing in her past She saw the woman in the shadow with the empty shining eyes Black lips, pale skin, something ancient in disguise A hand stretched out in silence like it always had been there And something in her shaking bones told her not to care The spiders in my lair keep laughing in my chest Saying hunger isn’t evil it’s survival at its best They say the girl was fading long before she crossed the floor They say the monster wasn’t born behind that door LOOK The altar wasn’t holy, it was cold and sharp and wide And when she saw her own reflection something cracked inside Years of small decisions stacked behind her eyes Every “just this once” disguised as compromise The spiders in my lair don’t whisper anymore They don’t need to tell me what the hunger’s really for They say I built the temple out of everything I feared And when I called it safety that’s the moment I disappeared The girl outside is shaking in the sand Same dust in her lungs, same tremor in her hands She thinks something will save her if she only steps inside But I know what is waiting I’m the one behind The spiders in my lair go quiet when I smile They’ve been inside my bloodstream for a while The hunger isn’t foreign, it’s something that I grew And every time I take her hand I know exactly what I’ll do The door stays open. It always does. Another girl. Another trust. The spiders in my lair keep telling me I’m fine That fear just needs a body and I volunteered mine They say the cycle’s natural, it never really ends And every time she reaches out I reach back again.
