I kept you close to my heart. I loved you for fifteen years. Now I know... I have tried all that I could think of to reach you. People you used to talk to. People that could have your contact details. None of it worked. And I’m left with this sorrow. I left you behind then, that’s a fact. You are gone for good. Gone for good. My soul is empty. Without you. You mean that much to me. I fell for you, more than I ever did with anyone else. And you are gone... for good... You could have been my soulmate. You had everything. Smart, funny, pretty. You should have seen me for what I was. A child trapped in a young man’s body. An innocent mind, thirsty for affection, scared of rejection. A peculiar human being, not in synch with his time. You are gone for good. Gone for good. My soul is empty. Without you. You mean that much to me. I fell for you, more than I ever did with anyone else. And you are gone... for good... Did you have to cool down my ardor? Couldn’t you tell something else? Instead of staying mysterious as you always were. Instead of wearing your usual poker face. Couldn’t you make the effort, for once? I would have made the leap... I would have come to you... however far you were. You are gone for good. Gone for good. My soul is empty. Without you. You mean that much to me. I fell for you, more than I ever did with anyone else. And you are gone... for good... Now I’m left with an idea that has been killed. And I dream... of you... of your eyes, your voice. Your sweet embrace, your fierce loving. I am a blank slate, could have been all you wanted from a man. You let me flee. How could you do this to me? I am mad at you. And you will never know, never care. Anca... you are the love of my life. I will not recover from this failure. You are gone for good. Gone for good. My soul is empty. Without you. You mean that much to me. I fell for you, more than I ever did with anyone else. And you are gone... for good... In a perfect world, my sorrow, by some unknown miracle... Reaches you. And you connect again. This world is not perfect. I can’t believe that you will. You are gone for good. You made your decision at 38. Now you are 42. There is no way you could come back. It hurts. So bad. So much. I love you Anca. You are gone for good. Gone for good. My soul is empty. Without you. You are gone... for good... You are gone... for good... Gone... gone... gone... for good.
