(Intro — Detuned piano. Static. A shaky breath. A faint heartbeat.) I know I'm not perfect... I know I'm not deserving of you... I know it because I hate myself... Not kinda... I hate myself... Rave (cold, left channel): Then say it like you mean it... you're pathetic... Now let me speak... (beat drops — dragging, heavy) --- (Verse 1 — Nathan, broken.) I'm not perfect — that's the understatement of my life I'm a wreck, I'm a mess, I'm a blade that cuts my own wrist twice I know I'm not deserving of you Not the way you look at me like I'm something worth holding onto I hate myself — not the quiet kind The kind that screams at 3 AM, the kind that writes "worthless" on the mirror The kind that flinches when you call me "handsome" 'Cause I don't believe it, I've never believed it Every compliment feels like a lie I'm receiving And I'm sorry — God, I'm sorry You fell for a ghost still learning to be sorry For breathing, for taking up space For the way my existence feels like a waste Rave (cutting in): She sees something in you... I don't see it... You're pathetic... a broken toy... But she stays... for some reason she stays... --- (Pre-Chorus) Nathan: Why do you stay when I give you every reason to leave Why do you hold me when I can't even believe Rave: She stays because she's holy... or she's stupid... Either way... you don't deserve it... neither do I... But here we are... --- (Chorus — Both voices.) Pathetic — that's what I am A broken boy in a broken man I know I'm not perfect, I know I'm not whole I know I hate the mirror and the mirror hates my soul Pathetic — that's the word for me A sinking ship that refuses to leave The harbor of your arms, the safety of your chest I don't deserve you — I've always known that Pathetic... --- (Verse 2 — Rave leads, cold but something underneath.) Rave: You think I don't feel it too? The Black Shepherd knows what it's like to lose Every battle against the man in the glass I was built from your hate — don't forget that I'm the armor you wore when the world attacked And I'm tired of watching you grovel like a dog in the fire She loves you... I don't know why, but she does So stop making her prove it, just accept it because She's still here even when you're pathetic Even when you let it consume every good thing She's still here... and that's more than most... Nathan (soft): I know... and I hate that she sees this... She deserves someone better... Not someone pathetic... --- (Pre-Chorus) Nathan: Why do you stay when I give you every reason to run... Rave: Because she sees something we don't... Past the monster, past the hate, past the mirror... Something worth saving... --- (Chorus — Bigger, both voices breaking.) Pathetic — that's what I am A broken boy who became a broken man I know I'm not perfect, I know I'm not whole I know I hate the mirror and the mirror hates my soul Pathetic — that's the word for me But she's still here... somehow she's still here... And maybe pathetic doesn't mean worthless Maybe pathetic just means still fighting through the hurt --- (Bridge — Everything drops. Just breathing. Two voices, quiet.) Nathan: I hate myself... I really do... But you don't... and I don't understand you... Rave: Neither do I... but maybe love isn't about understanding... Maybe it's just about staying... Nathan: I'm pathetic... Rave: Yeah... you are... but you're also still here... And so is she... so maybe pathetic isn't the end... Maybe it's just the beginning of something that hasn't healed yet... Both: We don't deserve her... but she's here anyway... Pathetic... but loved... broken... but held... --- (Final Chorus — Swelling, aching, real.) Pathetic — yeah, that's what I am But she's still holding this broken man I know I'm not perfect, I know I'm not whole I know I hate the mirror and the mirror hates my soul But she says I'm worth it — and she's still here Through the hate, through the fear, through the years Pathetic — maybe that's not the end Maybe pathetic is where love begins --- (Outro — Piano fading. A heartbeat. A final whisper.) Nathan: I know I'm not perfect... Rave: Neither is anyone... Nathan: I know I'm not deserving of you... Rave: But she's still here... Both: So maybe we're not as pathetic as we think... Or maybe we are... And she loves us anyway... (piano) (silence)
