. . . I wanted to learn, To grow as a soul, I just didn't expect It would be so hurtful. . .oh oh no no Oh oh no no . Healing- with clarity- As an authentic -intelect? More painful than it looks- Soul deep wounds- Affect you- for a long time- No matter the relationship- . . Oh oh no no Oh oh no no Better to catch all The places where Expectations, lie- laying- in weighted - waiting Like a predetermined heart-ache you created . . Oh oh no no Oh oh no no Actions speak so much Louder than words, don't Count on anything that Blows away with the wind. . . . Oh oh no no no Oh oh oh oh oh no no no . . . Words are so pretty, they Embrace you with promises In definition, leaving your own Perceptions- to kill you in the end- . . . Oh oh no no Oh oh no no no . . . I've experienced extremes On both sides, over and under The expanse of nothingness completely on either end... . . . Oh oh no no Oh oh oh oh oh no no no ... .... ...... . Stoicism for me, is the Loneliest place I've been. At least an up or down, Is something. . . Oh oh oh No no . . .... The essense of an emotion Is to define an experience to Its fullest- yet would a thicker Skin really experience completely? . . Oh oh no no no No no no. . . If water is falling and rolling Rolling rolling- like off the back Of a duck, how does one discern- Oh hey, I wanted to feel that one- Worse- I would have really Been into- loving them- . . Oh oh oh oh How will you know- if you 'Would-have" if too many Let-downs-kept you too Fearful- for anything but Detaching, I mean FUCK Oh oh fuck fuck no . . . Gotta have some- way to Survive, when intuition lies, From right inside your own fucking guts- . . Oh oh oh no No no no . . ... Self love rise above All the others without Souls who lie and manipulate, Playing a long-game- best luck to ya- I'm not available for comment- . . Still trying just Not to feel- . . . .oh oh oh oh oh No no no . . . stoic not super great suppose thats the point- tired of all that hurt- . .
