[Intro] I light up just to feel like I’m not dead inside But no high ever lasts long enough to hide What you left behind... [Verse 1] I still see you on the floor, screaming at the world Ripped apart, no peace for a broken girl But I was just a kid, crying behind the door Begging God like, “please, don’t let there be more” Now you're gone and I’m stuck with this pain Photos, flashbacks, blood in the rain They say “she’s free now,” but what about me? I’m still in that house, still can’t breathe [Pre-Chorus] No therapist can fix this No pill can erase her wrists I’m tired of pretending I’m fine I’m tired of surviving with a fake smile [Chorus] You left me with ghosts in my head Demons that sleep in my bed I try to be perfect, I try to be strong But I’m just a kid that’s been hurting too long Still screaming your name in the dark Wishing I could restart your heart But you’re gone… and I’m still not okay [Verse 2] People say “you’re so brave” but they don’t see The bottle, the joint, the scars on me I keep it all quiet, I keep it all deep Cause no one wants truth, they just want me sweet And yeah, I fucked up, I’ve made mistakes But what do you expect when everything breaks? I lost her, I lost myself Now I’m praying to a god I never felt [Bridge] I hate that I still cry I hate that I survived I hate that I can’t forget The day she tried to say goodbye with her final breath [Chorus] You left me with ghosts in my head Demons that sleep in my bed I try to be perfect, I try to be strong But I’m just a kid that’s been hurting too long Still screaming your name in the dark Wishing I could restart your heart But you’re gone… and I’m still not okay [Outro – spoken/whispered] Too young to be strong Too broken to move on But I’ll write your name in every song 'Cause that’s how I keep you alive…
