My day was fine, and work was good Slept through the night, had morning wood I cleaned the house, took care of stuff Now evening comes, I have enough The quiet voices in my head Start mumbling and make a bet To see if I’ll stay strong or break The bottles there Which one to take It’s afternoon, I still feel fine What happens if I don’t drink wine I swipe that thought right from my mind Thought therapy would help to find The reason I reach for the glass Too many to reduce that mess That reigns within the head of mine How many shots till I am fine I see other people do it Have a life without the booze I know they have their own big problems Yet they’re strong enough to choose To live a life without addictions Without help from wine or gin til I figure out how that is done I’ll never say that I am done While I am Using To relieve the stress I hide Something good to make me blind So I can’t see the hurt the pain the fear the hate the unforgiven violence all around to find All this makes no fucking sense So I relax my shaking hands While they’re ready to reach out to take the stuff that makes it stop Sure, I find life too exciting and there’s still more that I have to see So I’m using It’s not that I don’t wanna find Some nice tall guy and hope he might Have all the answers to some of The questions itching me at night Until that day I think I found Not really the best thing for me to ground Myself and look inside that heart that once Was whole and now is broken The reason I reach for the glass Is I like to drink to stop that mess That burns within the head of mine Too many pills just to be fine Of course I see some people do it Live and dance without the booze But before I get how that’s done Believe me I will not be done with all the Using To relieve the stress I hide Something strong that makes me blind To forget the tears the sad, the frightened, the forgotten, unforgiven and those too tired to hide And Cause it makes no fucking sense I need to stop my shaking hands When they are ready to reach out and take More stuff to make it stop I know that life is too exciting and there’s still more that I have to see So I’m using I say I’m good But I am not I will be fine Stupid lie I like to think I am controlling That I’m owner of my brain That It’s me to guide the journey Through this valley made of flames So it’s not even that surprising That it’s still using Just to survive Using (Mhh) Using (Mhh) Using
