I’ve got a past that taught me things No decent man should know I’ve seen what rage can do to flesh I’ve watched good intentions go There’s a shadow in my bloodline There’s a fire beneath my skin But just because I can bring thunder Doesn’t mean I want the storm to begin I know exactly what I’m capable of I know the damage anger brings But the strongest hand Is not the one that strikes It’s the one that holds the reins I’m capable of violence But I don’t hunger for the fight There’s a monster in the mirror But I keep it locked inside But for God I’d be a bad man Lost beneath the weight of sin But mercy found me in the darkness And redemption pulled me in I’m not harmless I’m forgiven I’m not weak I’m standing free The worst thing inside of me Ain’t the thing I choose to be They can push me they can provoke me They can walk me to the line They can pour gasoline on anger And call...the burning mine But every time that old nature Starts clawing at the door I hear the voice that saved my life Say you don’t live there anymore I ain’t proud of every battle That still rages in my head But restraint is not surrender And grace ain’t weakness dressed in red I’m capable of violence But I don’t hunger for the fight There’s a monster in the mirror But I keep it locked inside But for God I’d be a bad man Lost beneath the weight of sin But mercy found me in the darkness And redemption pulled me in I’m not harmless I’m forgiven I’m not weak I’m standing free The worst thing inside of me Ain’t the thing I choose to be Don’t mistake my silence For a promise you can break Don’t confuse the peace I’m choosing With a fear you can awake I’ve walked too far through fire To become the flame again God redeemed the man I buried I won’t resurrect him for them I could answer hate with hate I could let the old blood speak But the cross rewrote my ending And put mercy underneath The monster still remembers Every road it used to roam But God put chains around its anger And called this wounded heart His home I’m capable of violence But I don’t hunger for the fight I’ve got power in my hands But I surrender it to Christ But for God I’d be a bad man A hard soul with a hollow grin But mercy found me in the darkness And redemption pulled me in I’m not harmless I’m forgiven I’m not weak I’m standing free The worst thing inside of me Ain’t the thing I choose to be So push me if you want to Keep knocking at the door But I belong to God now I don’t belong to war I’m capable of violence But violence doesn’t own me But for God I’d be a bad man By His grace I’m redeemed
