[Intro - Spoken, clear male vocals] This is my story... of growing up between worlds Having friends but never quite belonging Of feeling present but somehow invisible I've spent a lifetime in limbo [Verse 1 - Singing] Four years old in preschool, friends by my side Still felt the sting when one kid crossed the line Dad worked long hours while I learned to play Had buddies around me most every day We built tree houses, fought with sticks and stones Laughed together, still I felt alone Had my people, had my childhood fun Yet something inside me felt undone [Pre-Chorus] Had friends beside me all along the way Still felt like I didn't belong each day Smiling on the outside, hurting within A contradiction I couldn't begin to explain [Chorus] I'm a limbo child with friends all around Still feel disconnected on familiar ground I'm a limbo child with laughter to share Present in the moment but not really there [Rap Verse 1] Seven years old, same class as my tormentor Bullying intensified, became my unwanted mentor Words cutting deeper than physical pain could reach Lessons in cruelty no child should have to teach Still had my friends, we built houses in trees Resource wars erupted for sticks and leaves Lord of the Flies in our Swedish neighborhood Blood and bruises, both the bad and the good Surgery at seven left its mark on me Another reason for their mockery Yet I still had friends when the school bell would call We'd laugh and play like nothing was wrong at all Inside I was breaking, outside I was strong Then one night everything suddenly changed Heard my mother screaming, my world rearranged Ran downstairs to find blood everywhere Hospital rush, a memory that's always there Brother born premature, week twenty-five A trauma witnessed through a child's eyes Family intact but something had shifted The weight on my shoulders mysteriously lifted From one pain to another as life moved along Having friends around yet not feeling strong By nine years old, the bullying grew worse Parents decided to move, a blessing and curse New school, new start, my cousin was there New friends formed quickly, beyond compare Yet that feeling of limbo refused to fade Present in body, my spirit stayed delayed [Bridge] (Inner conflict) Laughing while hurting (Contradiction) Present but distant Friends all around, still feeling alone A puzzle I've always known [Chorus] I'm a limbo child with friends all around Still feel disconnected on familiar ground I'm a limbo child with laughter to share Present in the moment but not really there [Rap Verse 2] New school brought hope but bullying followed New targets found me, my confidence hollowed Cousin's presence offered some protection Making friends but missing deep connection As years passed, cracks between parents grew Fighting at night, thinking I never knew Dad distant, showing love through material things When all I needed was the comfort presence brings By fifteen, my social world expanded wide Cousin popular, I rode alongside Partying, drinking, somewhere in between The nerds and cool kids, never fully seen Limbo state defining my teenage years Having friends but harboring secret fears That I didn't belong in any single place A chameleon changing to match each face Then the day came when they finally split Dad's words like daggers: "Your fault" - that was it How could he blame me for their broken vows? A burden no child should ever be allowed Betrayal cutting deeper than bullies ever could From the man whose love I desperately would Have traded all those toys to simply receive Instead left wondering what to believe About my worth, my place, my right to be Caught between worlds where I couldn't see A clear reflection of who I really was Having friends but feeling lost because Something fundamental remained unresolved As into adulthood my life evolved Still feeling in limbo to this very day Having people around but feeling away From where I should be, from where I belong Present in body but emotionally wrong [Outro - Starts to fade out into acapella, then end silence] Now I understand what couldn't be named Not friendless or lonely, but something unclaimed Those childhood days with friends all around Still left me searching for solid ground Maybe limbo isn't the absence of love But feeling unanchored when push comes to shove The story's still writing itself every day Learning to be present in my own way To finally feel at home in my skin That's where belonging can truly begin [End] [Final Chorus] Was a limbo child with friends all around Still feelt disconnected on familiar ground Was a limbo child with laughter to share Was Present in the moment but not really there Times has changed, but i finally get it.... [Outro - Starts to fade out into acapella, then end silence] I understand what couldn't be named Not friendless or lonely, but something unclaimed Those childhood days with friends all around Still left me searching for solid ground Maybe limbo isn't the absence of love But feeling unanchored when push comes to shove The story's still writing itself every day Learning to be present in my own way To finally feel at home in my skin That's where belonging can truly begin [End]
