**[Verse 1]** Saw your name where it shouldn’t be next to someone who once believed me Funny how the truth gets inconvenient when the monster starts acting decent Guess you cleaned up nice for the sequel new audience, same fucking evil You get introductions, clean hands, fresh starts I get explaining why I still fall apart **[Pre-Chorus]** And maybe hate’s an ugly word but you earned every fucking letter I don’t miss you I don’t want you I just know you should’ve known better **[Chorus]** I still hate you Yeah, I said it, I still do Not because I want you back Not because I’m not over you I hate that you get to be brand new to everyone who wasn’t there You get to start over I get to remember Tell me how the fuck is that fair? I still hate you Maybe someday I won’t But tonight I fucking do **[Verse 2]** And you— you knew what happened you watched me put a name to it held the pieces while I shook then walked straight back into it So what am I supposed to call that? Bad judgment? Bad timing? A phase? You knew exactly who he was and decided that was something you could waive Maybe he’s sweet when there are witnesses maybe he learned which parts to hide Maybe you think I’m just dramatic because he hasn’t hurt **you** yet, right? **[Pre-Chorus]** God, I hope you never understand me I hope you never learn firsthand But don’t ask me to call it nothing just because you still hold his hand **[Chorus]** I still hate you Yeah, I said it, I still do Not because I want you back Not because I’m not over you I hate that you get to be brand new to everyone who wasn’t there You get to start over I get to remember Tell me how the fuck is that fair? I still hate you Maybe someday I won’t But tonight I fucking do **[Breakdown]** You don’t get absolution because somebody new said yes You don’t become a good man because they haven’t seen the mess You don’t get to bury me under your redemption arc I know what you look like when nobody’s watching in the dark And I survived you. That is not the same as forgiving you. **[Bridge]** I used to think healing meant I’d have to wish you well Like peace was only real if I could save you from yourself Fuck that. I can heal and still remember I can live and still be mad I can build a life you’ll never touch and call what happened bad Maybe one day your name means nothing just some scar I barely view But indifference is tomorrow Tonight— **[Final Chorus]** I still hate you And I’m finally fine with that You took enough from me already you don’t get to take my anger back Go play redeemed for someone else Go swear you’ve finally changed But every prettier version of you still answers to the same damn name I still hate you Not forever— just longer than you’d like me to You get to start over. I get to remember. And I still hate you.
