Standing Still

[Verse 1] I don't fight it anymore I don't name it I don't pray I just burn through the minutes till there's nothing left to feel Wake up late, lights still on Same cup by the sink I don't wake up guilty I don't wake up clean Just somewhere in between Like nothing happened Like everything did [Pre-Chorus] I used to mark the days off Like they meant something Now I just check the damage See what's still running [Chorus] I don't call it healing I don't call it shame I call it standing still While everything else changed [Verse 2] I still say I'm good, still show up on time Laugh when it's my turn Say I'm doing fine There's a quiet underneath I don't explain It don't scream or beg, it just stays Some nights are silent Some nights it's loud I don't ask which one's better I just ride it out I don't say I'm better I don't say I'm worse I just live in the middle Like it could be worse [Chorus] I don't call it healing I don't call it shame I call it standing still While everything else changed [Bridge] If this is the middle I can live with that If this is as close As I get back I don't swear it's over I don't swear it's done I just sit with the quiet When the wanting doesn't come I don't call it healing I don't call it shame [Chorus] I don't call it healing I don't call it shame I call it standing still While everything else changed