[Verse] You ask me what I need from you, I tell you less than what is true. I say I need some room to breathe, when what I fear is what I need. I know the rules, I know the cost, I know how much can still be lost. So every kindness makes me wait, to see the price behind the weight. I learned to leave before I stayed, to hide the debts my heart had made. I learned that needing meant I owed, so I became my own abode. [Pre-Chorus] I can accept what I control, but closeness asks for more than whole. The more you see, the less I hide, the harder it becomes to step aside. [Chorus] Something I can't let in, keeps standing where I draw the line, I know you haven't done a thing, but still I make your risk mine. Something I can't let in, turns every promise into doubt, I build a case against your heart before you ever let me down. Something I can't let in, is not a danger coming through, it's everything I learned to fear when someone gets too close to you. Stay outside, stay outside, that's the safest place to hide. You get close, I pull away, though part of me wants you to stay If you're next to me the air gets thin.. cuz you are Something I can't let in [Verse] You stopped demanding explanations, stopped requesting guarantees. You never turned my hesitation into evidence against me. And somehow that made it harder to pretend I had it planned, because you gave me back the freedom to decide what I could stand. I called distance independence, I called silence being strong. I made weakness out of needing and convinced myself I wasn't wrong. But every wall I built for safety kept everything locked outside, and I started seeing clearly what I lost each time I hide. [Pre-Chorus] I keep waiting for the cost, the final bill, the promised loss. I search for reasons you will leave, so I can leave before the grieve. [Chorus] Something I can't let in, has learned the language of my doubt, it takes the safest possibility and finds a reason to shut out. Something I can't let in, keeps turning care into a test, I ask how long your patience lasts instead of letting myself rest. Something I can't let in, has nothing you can prove or mend, because every road I take from you was chosen long before we met. I reach for you, then change my mind, and build a wall and call it mine. If you ask me to stay, I find a reason to pull away. I'm good at ending something before it can begin, if I feel there is Something I can't let in [Verse] Tonight I don't rehearse an exit, I don't search your words for signs. I let the silence stay between us without filling every line. For the first time, I can notice what I feel before I flee, and that small pause is enough to leave the choice with me. [Bridge] Maybe I don't need certainty to know what I want to try. Maybe trust begins the moment I stop preparing for goodbye. So if I feel the old fear rise, I won't disguise it as advice. If I need distance, I'll explain, if I want closeness, I'll remain. [Final Chorus] Something I can't let in, doesn't have to rule me now, I can feel the old reaction without following it out. Something I can't let in, can be fear and still be fear, it can speak without becoming the decision that I hear. Something I can't let in, doesn't have to disappear, I can leave the boundary standing while I choose to bring you near. Something I can't let in, may remain beneath my skin, but it doesn't choose my future just because it once kept me safe from it. [Outro] You ask me where this leaves us now, I don't have an answer yet. I tell you what I can give today, and hope it's enough for you to get. I can hear my heartbeat change, when you move within my range. As I now know what might wait within, I hope it's getting easier for me to let something in....
