NEVER ENOUGH TO STAY Verse 1 I learned goodbye before I learned my name Different houses, different faces, same old pain I learned to pack before I learned to trust How to call it home without believing it was So I grew up giving everything away Thinking maybe love would make somebody stay Every time somebody said, “I won’t disappear” I handed them the parts of me nobody else could get near And they took what they needed Left the rest on the floor Now I don’t know what love is supposed to feel like anymore Pre-Chorus Everybody sees the anger Nobody sees the scared little kid Everybody hates the walls I built Nobody asks me why I did Chorus What is it about me That’s never enough to stay? Why does everybody love me Till loving me gets hard someday? I gave you every piece of me You gave the pieces back in pain Tell me what is wrong with me Why am I so easy to replace? I can survive another goodbye God knows I’ve survived enough I just wanna know before I die Why I’m never enough to love Never enough Never enough to stay Verse 2 I buried my little girl and something buried me There are kinds of pain you don’t recover from completely I screamed at God until my throat forgot His name How do you take an angel Then leave her father with the blame? And every person after her I held a little tighter Terrified that anything I loved Was just another timer Counting down to empty rooms Another closing door Another person promising forever Till they don’t want forever anymore Pre-Chorus They call me difficult They call me damaged They tell me I should let things go But if everybody you ever loved disappeared Tell me how the hell would you know? How to sleep without one eye open How to love without preparing for the end How to believe “I’m not leaving” When leaving’s all you’ve ever understood from them Chorus What is it about me That’s never enough to stay? Why does everybody love me Till loving me gets hard someday? I gave you every piece of me You gave the pieces back in pain Tell me what is wrong with me Why am I so easy to replace? I can survive another goodbye God knows I’ve survived enough I just wanna know before I die Why I’m never enough to love Never enough Never enough to stay Bridge Maybe my rage is just a guard dog Standing outside a broken home Maybe every time I push you away I’m begging you not to go Maybe I don’t need somebody perfect Maybe I never needed saving I just needed one person One fucking person To see the worst of me Know where it came from Hold the shaking hands beneath the fists And say— “I’m still here.” And mean it. Breakdown Don’t tell me everybody leaves Don’t tell me that’s just life I’ve spent my whole existence Watching taillights in the night Don’t tell me I’m too much When all I ever wanted was enough Enough to choose Enough to keep Enough to love when loving me gets deep Final Chorus So what is it about me That’s never enough to stay? Why did I spend my whole damn life Watching everybody walk away? I gave the world my heart so many times There’s almost nothing left to break And maybe there was never something wrong with me Maybe they just didn’t know What they were allowed to take But I’m tired of surviving goodbye I’m tired of being tough I don’t wanna spend another life Trying to prove I’m worth your love If you see my heart Please don’t touch it Unless you came to stay ’Cause I’ve been left enough I’ve been left enough I’ve been left enough For one lifetime anyway Outro Everybody sees the anger Nobody sees the kid Still standing by the window Waiting for somebody Who said they’d come back And did.
