Infernal Monologue

Live from the bottom of a food chain, is this urban barnacle. High's the way I do thangs. Exhumed from my larvae pool of goons and knaves to a sweatshop wanderin' mute. Washin glops of goo, original glaze for dollars that poof However long it skews, ima get back in school like mama knew if my disdain wrinkle, cover my pain in sprinkles cuz this damn donut shop be makin my veins tingle Dingleberries swear that my rage periwinkle my manager got me on camera scannin with stamina cuz im from a slandered land of damsel panthers ambushin bammers with hammer tantrums, i clamored for handguns i handled that famish i gandered with bandits, bugged out, superstitious like a praying mantis Thats why they stereotype like i'm a vandal We all animals, i'm just tryna stay a mammal. My mood is reclusive ... sunbathed under the moon's tit ... the milk dripped keeps me dazed from that lunatic hidden in my pupils with razors on my hubris ... he's a nuisance always saying I'm stupid because I'm full of talent, and empty on the loot, shit. I let the night blackout all the doodles on my life cuz I'm a ruin. Stoned and disputed. Will I be a solution or dead in my juices ... still can't serenade my excuses, that's like serrating my mom's uterus ... I'll find a way like an Uber cuz my past was polluted, maybe cuz a dad's an illusion or I've been outcasted to mutant ... feeling like plaid shorts ... double crossed ... but that's the past too short for the monolouge, I count blessings, cash and an entourage that I can set on fire to clash with the Gods i'm just a child Avoidant and wild Paranoid of obligation I'll soar with the owls Go on tour with my denial Bet my debt 2:1 roulette It's cigarettes on a jet Or a tec to the neck Melodramatic, soul all static I'm broken. Offspring would be inappropriate Go bolt me to the ocean If u catch my drift Settled in open abyss All I want is too much to even clutch Huffing American dreams In Chinese polyethylene Now I'm stuck Jaded and full of rust Lusting what I couldn't touch