I Think Not... (English Ver.)

So tired of not keeping what I promise Everything I say just seems to have no end... I do it for others, but for me, I veto it I'm the one least pleased, and I live like this, my friend. I'm the only person I should try to please But I'm the one who doesn't listen to myself with ease. I have what I need, but I don't have the pillar What's the point of it all, if I can't love this killer? Lacking self-love! Lacking inner peace! Focus and perseverance! Will I ever change this dance, this appearance? I think not... And last night I didn't even sleep I'm feeling awful, like trash, buried deep It's usually bad, but today I weep My own world became this niche I keep. Today I'm so much worse, today I'm on the floor Hope walked out and just abandoned me at the door. I have what I need, but I don't have the pillar What's the point of it all, if I can't love this killer? Lacking self-love! Lacking inner peace! Focus and perseverance! Will I ever change this dance, this appearance? I think not... I watch the time passing by the window Everyone else's life seems to flow Mine is stuck in this cell, moving slow No strength left, not even to grow. I try, I swear, but I just can't win It's like I am my own worst enemy within. I have what I need, but I don't have the pillar What's the point of it all, if I can't love this killer? Lacking self-love! Lacking inner peace! Focus and perseverance! Will I ever change this dance, this appearance? I think not... I just hope... I get a little better... I just hope... (before I lose my tether...) I just hope... (to settle this vendetta...) "Get better!" "Will I change?" "I think not..." "I think not..." I have what I need, but I don't have the pillar What's the point of it all, if I can't love this killer? Lacking self-love! Lacking inner peace! Focus and perseverance! Will I ever change this dance, this appearance? I think not... I think not...