Some days it just hurts and that's how it goes When nothing seems to matter then a story unfolds The pain from the past hurt that I try not to show Turns into disaster and I'm dying to know A couple of questions like why do I bleed From old memories that's refueling the grief From heartache to terror why does it haunt me I'll put my pen to the paper and I'll write til I'm free I'm wide awake But half asleep I'm wondering Is it just me??? Why does it matter? What does it mean? I'm reaching for peace or to hold anything! It's dragging me down to the place underneath... As I'm laying me down And you're burying me... If nothing comes after and that's all it means You'll fade me out and forget me don't do anything When I'm playing my mind on repeat it's only dangerous for me. Some days are disaster and that's how it goes I'm spinning outward faster while inside I implode I claw and I grasp for a means for the mess Is this what I deserve or is this all I have left How does it take over why does it eat at me The still burning smolders from old memories Don't want it don't need it why won't it just leave I'm stuck with the question why do we do anything? I'm wide awake But half asleep I'm wondering Is it just me??? Why does it matter? What does it mean? I'm reaching for peace or to hold anything! It's dragging me down to the place underneath... As I'm laying me down And you're burying me... If nothing comes after and that's all it means You'll fade me out and forget me don't do anything When I'm playing my mind on repeat it's only dangerous for me. Why me? It's only dangerous for me.
