Dear God, me here. (Just me) Just Jen. Just me. And my soul… And me, too. (Me too) (me too) Oooooh. Ooooh. (Please hear me out) When is the last time I CRIED out to YOU? Who knows when prayers are loose I haven't cried this hard in 7 years. I pray, God you get these tears (please weep with me) Because I need salvation and sparing This pain is soberly unbearing If you'll make it stop I'll try (I swear I’ll try) I'll give up any high (any and all) Because I owe it to them all three To make up for their sadness of me I swear I'll love harder (At least illlll tryyyyy) Just stop their pain from their martyr It's sickening and vain And I know I'm to blame Please find the truth in my heart To share the love inside I know it's pushed down so far But help me bring it back to life Please let my tears stop My mind rest (just once more) My brain and eyeballs can't take anymore I'm ready to drop Drop it all at heavens's door (Heaven? Hah) (But yes, at the gates up top) Please take those thoughts away My family can't take anymore suffering Please change their hearts to stay with me Please change their hearts to fully love me (who fully loves me?) Yes, you but …. I need their whole hearts if it's not too late Never wanted to be like my mother As if I was actually sheltered. I don't want to be like my father A lifetime to repent while oxygen re filters. I want redemption and a blanket (Your blanket without my regret) Of your undying love to fulfill my gap I know that's what I'm missing (Missing. Missssinnggg) So long ago my christening Lifetimes of not listening JUST PLEASE! (Just PLEASE) God, HEAR ME HEAR ME For me For him For them For all of us (all of us. All of us….) I hurt, I confess But do you really bless? (Bless them if yes) Give them rest. Please God hear my tears Please take away my fears Guide me back to someone I recognize Perhaps who I am deep inside I beg of your love to fill my heart again To let go of anger and sin Release the resentment towards myself I know I can't truly love Not without trusting you Not without forgiveness and Loving myself again PLEASE be with me! Help me heal From that unfathomable fear (Becaauuusssee it’s all too surreal) I lift up my life to YOU Of all worries and what may come For I know you'll be with me just as your only son. I have faith and that's all I have left I'm sorry it's taken so long to come back to you (Baaaacccckkkk to you) ooooooh Ooooohhhh Ooooh - eee oooh Just me, too I ask for your forgiveness I beg of your mercy I know you're there (Been there all along) and I've let you down But I know you can fill my heart with the joy that belongs inside Inside, to the core, deep down. If not for me, then for them. Let’s being in again. Because I'm broken. I feel myself dying inside (deeeep insiiiiddde) and I can't do it alone I've been looking in the wrong person for healing and help… SO (So -oooohhhhhhh) I ask you to hear my prayers And guide me towards your love and joy (joy) again Put me to work Make me a ten (Or at least- ooohhhh ooorrrrr at least forgive my sins) In God's name I pray. -Amen (amen) (Amen) (Aaaaa-aymeeennnn) Capor Now I can say Thank you ——————-/—————- As I send prayers of gold, only talking to the highest fool. My heart, all I have to give is for you (For you, for them) Except for the role Model Except for my haste Once was a man I graced Welcomed to show his place That Begotten lost sound Forgive your soul astound.. forgiveness noooooowwwwwww I had faith and that's ALL I have left I'm sorry (I'm sorry) Sorry that it's taken so long (so long) to come back to you I ask for your forgiveness I beg of your mercy I know you're there But, hey! [spoken] Hey God! Are you there? Or do I talk to Jesus? Which one gives my mind a recess? (Hehehehe) That’s ok though. As I say outloud Because let’s be sound. It may take forever for my soul found. SO COME ON….. Let’s be real….. (Hahahahaha) EXACTLY! But...........come on, let's be real (spoken hushed but stern) I'll do it again. I'll let you down. Block joy that belongs inside But AGAAAAIIIINNNNNN - If not for me, then for them. Because I'm broken. I feel myself dying inside and can't do it alone I've been looking in the wrong person for healing and help so I ask you to hear my prayers And guide me towards your love and joy again In God's name I pray. -Amen Capor
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