Boy's a Broken man v2

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punchy 808s, studio recorded, deep male lead, slap bass, hardcore gangster rap, Gothic female backup

V5.5

(Verse 1)
Nine pounds even when I came out screamin’
Didn’t know I was born into a house already bleedin’
Dad was a King, but the crown was cracked
Mom was the queen, but her throne was stacked
With empty bottles, broken clocks, quiet screams
I learned the monsters ain’t in closets, they rip apart at the seams
Four years old, watchin’ Jekyll turn Hyde
The man who'd teach me to farm now got hooks in his pride
I’d hide behind the couch, count the cracks in the plaster
Prayin’ the devil get tired, or the storm pass faster
But it never did, it just parked in the driveway
And my mom’s tears fell like hot coins… every Friday
She’d say, “Go to your room,” but I pressed my ear to her leg
Heard his thunder, felt the crash, knew I had to beg 
Heard her whimper, not a word, just the sound of a dove
And I realized that night… prayers ain’t enough, my brain needs a slug.

(Chorus)
I became a man ‘fore the fuzz grew on my chin
Put my chest where the pain was, let the hard knocks begin
Mama cried blood, I caught it in my hand
Said, “You ain’t his ark, I’ll be the ark, this ain't the Promised Land”
She saved me by leavin’, I saved her by standin’
Two broken hearts, one escape plan landin’
Out the ashes, out the known, into the mist
A boy became a ghost so his mother could exist.

(Verse 2)
Fast forward two years, I’m six no seven, arms like twigs
But the rage in my mind was thicker than his
He swung on a Tuesday, mom stepped in the zone
I stepped in between ‘em, turned her shield to a stone
Took the buckle to the back, took the fist to the cheek
Never made a sound, let my silence speak
He said, “You wanna be a man?” I just stared at the wall
Fuck these welts on my skin built a pillar, a hall
For her to walk through, a corridor of bruise
A son’s flesh used as a mother’s noose
To choke the guilt, to break my shin
“HIT ME again, but don’t you touch her skin.”
That night she packed a bag, no note, no plea
Just grabbed my hand and whispered, “You just saved me.”
I ain’t save her, I just bought her a minute
She saved us both when she decided to win it.

(Chorus)
I became a man ‘fore the fuzz grew on my chin
Put my chest where the pain was, let the lesson begin
Mama cried blood, I caught it in my hand
Said, “You ain’t his ark, I’ll be the ark, this aint the Promised Land”
She saved me by leavin’, I saved her by standin’
Two broken hearts, one escape plan landin’
Out the ashes, out the known, into the mist
A boy became a ghost so his mother could exist.

(Verse 3)
Now the streets is a mirror, reflectin’ the war
I fight the same fight, but I even the score
I see him in every man who raises a voice
I became the weapon, I made the choice
That boy ain't dead, he just armor-plated his chest
Traded cartoons for a tool, put his mother to rest
Not in the ground, but in a his house on a farm
Where the only tears shed are from happiness, not storms
Believin’ she made it, she looks at me strange
Sees the man in the child, asks, “When did you change?”
I don’t tell her the date, don’t tell her the hour
I just tell her I found her a wilted, sad flower
And watered it with my own damn blood
Now it blooms in the sun, far from the mud.
She left the known to protect what she bore
I stayed in the known, but I locked the damn door.

(Outro)
(Beat slows, heavy bass fades)
Yeah…
Some boys get a birthday.
I got a deadline.
Some moms get roses.
Mine got a a kid's spine.
(Beat cuts)
She cries now, but it’s just water.
And me?
I’m still standin’ at the door.
Waitin’ for the storm.
But the sky is clear, Ma.
The sky is clear.
…Shit.
... Here's the Sun
I'm.. I'm... Alive..

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(Intro) Yeah… This ain't for the softhearted... This is a recollection of a four year old boy... Not a story for the weak.... Uh… this for the warriors born in the dark. The ones who learned to walk by runnin’ from the spark. Mama’s tears on the linoleum… Let me paint this picture, no brush, just this heart I’m embalmin’ ‘em in. This young boy, 4 years old, blood on his fingers, soul already sold. (Yeah… nah, for real though…) (Verse 1) Nine pounds even when I came out screamin’ Didn’t know I was born into a house already bleedin’ Dad was a King, but the crown was cracked Mom was the queen, but her throne was stacked With empty bottles, broken clocks, quiet screams I learned the monsters ain’t in closets, they rip apart at the seams Four years old, watchin’ Jekyll turn Hyde The man who'd teach me to farm now got hooks in his pride I’d hide behind the couch, count the cracks in the plaster Prayin’ the devil get tired, or the storm pass faster But it never did, it just parked in the driveway And my mom’s tears fell like hot coins… every Friday She’d say, “Go to your room,” but I pressed my ear to her leg Heard his thunder, felt the crash, knew I had to beg Heard her whimper, not a word, just the sound of a dove And I realized that night… prayers ain’t enough, my brain needs a slug. (Chorus) I became a man ‘fore the fuzz grew on my chin Put my chest where the pain was, let the hard knocks begin Mama cried blood, I caught it in my hand Said, “You ain’t his ark, I’ll be the ark, this ain't the Promised Land” She saved me by leavin’, I saved her by standin’ Two broken hearts, one escape plan landin’ Out the ashes, out the known, into the mist A boy became a ghost so his mother could exist. (Verse 2) Fast forward two years, I’m six no seven, arms like twigs But the rage in my mind was thicker than his He swung on a Tuesday, mom stepped in the zone I stepped in between ‘em, turned her shield to a stone Took the buckle to the back, took the fist to the cheek Never made a sound, let my silence speak He said, “You wanna be a man?” I just stared at the wall Fuck these welts on my skin built a pillar, a hall For her to walk through, a corridor of bruise A son’s flesh used as a mother’s noose To choke the guilt, to break my shin “HIT ME again, but don’t you touch her skin.” That night she packed a bag, no note, no plea Just grabbed my hand and whispered, “You just saved me.” I ain’t save her, I just bought her a minute She saved us both when she decided to win it. (Chorus) I became a man ‘fore the fuzz grew on my chin Put my chest where the pain was, let the lesson begin Mama cried blood, I caught it in my hand Said, “You ain’t his ark, I’ll be the ark, this aint the Promised Land” She saved me by leavin’, I saved her by standin’ Two broken hearts, one escape plan landin’ Out the ashes, out the known, into the mist A boy became a ghost so his mother could exist. (Verse 3) Now the streets is a mirror, reflectin’ the war I fight the same fight, but I even the score I see him in every man who raises a voice I became the weapon, I made the choice That boy ain't dead, he just armor-plated his chest Traded cartoons for a tool, put his mother to rest Not in the ground, but in a his house on a farm Where the only tears shed are from happiness, not storms Believin’ she made it, she looks at me strange Sees the man in the child, asks, “When did you change?” I don’t tell her the date, don’t tell her the hour I just tell her I found her a wilted, sad flower And watered it with my own damn blood Now it blooms in the sun, far from the mud. She left the known to protect what she bore I stayed in the known, but I locked the damn door. (Outro) (Beat slows, heavy bass fades) Yeah… Some boys get a birthday. I got a deadline. Some moms get roses. Mine got a a kid's spine. (Beat cuts) She cries now, but it’s just water. And me? I’m still standin’ at the door. Waitin’ for the storm. But the sky is clear, Ma. The sky is clear. …Shit. ... Here's the Sun I'm.. I'm... Alive..

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