i don’t wanna say your name tonight it lingers like smoke in my lungs i tried to drown it in neon lights but silence is louder when you’re gone you left your laugh in my hallway it echoes when i’m half asleep i swear i felt you in the doorway but it’s just tricks that memory keeps and i— i still check my phone at 2:17 like maybe you’ll remember me like maybe time’ll rewind somehow and you’ll walk back in right now but you don’t and i know you won’t still i leave the door unlocked just in case you change your mind and i’m stuck here in the almost of a love we left behind your hoodie’s still on my chair i wear it when the nights get cold funny how you’re not even here but you’re the warmest thing i hold i tried to be somebody new someone who doesn’t need your touch but every version falls right through ‘cause none of them feels like us and i— i still check my phone at 2:17 like maybe you’ll remember me like maybe time’ll rewind somehow and you’ll walk back in right now but you don’t and i know you won’t still i leave the door unlocked just in case you change your mind and i’m stuck here in the almost of a love we left behind maybe in another life we don’t let go this easy maybe we get it right or maybe it still breaks me but tonight— i’m talking to ghosts again pretending you’re listening …like you always did
