# Now and at the Hour [Verse 1] You said the universe demanded pain You called it hard love, called it change You watched me starve and called it growth Then swore the stars had told you so You let me crawl, then praised my knees Like suffering had rescued me When I stood up, you took the credit Called it a reason—I won’t let it [Pre-Chorus] Is it true? Is it blue? Or only bruised because of you? You rename every mark you leave Then call the cover-up belief [Chorus] Now and at the hour, hear me clearly I survived every god you pretended to be Every sermon you bent till it pointed at me You don’t get to call the damage destiny I survived every god you pretended to be [Verse 2] You call me an abomination Then call your hate a revelation Go on—say it like you know it’s true But when you say “God,” you mean you You said God came and gave you a mission Funny how it matched your ambition Then made my hunger part of the plan So your new halo could cover your hands [Pre-Chorus] Don’t tell me I was meant to break Don’t bless the wounds your choices made I learned to live—I made it through That does not make a prophet out of you [Chorus] Now and at the hour, hear me clearly I survived every god you pretended to be Every sermon you bent till it pointed at me You don’t get to call the damage destiny I survived every god you pretended to be [Bridge] Whatever is holy can answer for itself It doesn’t need your hatred dressed as help No god or goddess made your choice You hurt me, then you borrowed their voice You called it reason, called it fate So you would never bear the weight But I was there—I know the truth When you said “God,” you meant you [Breakdown] I survived you You were not the reason I survived you You don’t own the meaning I survived you You don’t get the glory I survived you Now I tell the story [Final Chorus] Now and at the hour, hear me clearly I survived every god you pretended to be Every sermon you bent till it pointed at me You don’t get to call the damage destiny Now and at the hour, I know what is true “Abomination” meant “not like you” Keep your reason, your lesson, your sacred excuse When you say “God,” you mean you If there’s meaning in my life, it belongs to me I survived every god you pretended to be [Outro] Amen
